DIRTY

“In my experience, all The Perpetrators that I had, so 

about 200 men, they were all repeating something. 

They were all — because it was 

so specific for each one…. 

You know, what They were putting out, 

what they were Dumping on ME, 

really, because The Abuse, The Sexual Abuse 

is like An Exchange, An Energetic Exchange, 

where they are momentarily freed from 

The Burden that was put on their shoulders, 

by handing ME The Shame and all the…… 

whatever it is, you know, 

whatever Story goes with it.

And then I get to feel that I'm Bad 

or I get to feel that I'm DIRTY, or 

I get to feel that I'm worthless or 

I get to feel that I'm Powerful —

Whatever it is, it's A Projection that comes with

The Abuse, that the energetic exchange that I feel, 

comes from a very personal place in that person.

Q. : Do you think that kind of abuse, 

what you went through, is 

still going on today? 

“Well, Why wouldn't it?”

Q. : ....You'd like to think that that

nowadays it's harder to get away 

with those kinds of secret activities.

“Mhm. That's why

I think it's coming out —

But it's but there's nothing 

that's happened to really stop it.

Q. : What kind of thing coming out? 

Like Epstein, do you mean?

“Well, There's A Reason why 

We don't get The List, isn’t there? 

I mean, There's A Reason why 

The Dutreaux case ended up being 

just Marc Dutreaux —“

The DARK Truth About Why Epstein's Friends 

Will NEVER Be EXPOSED – Annek...

In this sobering and thought-provoking continuation of her story, Anneke Lucas explores why so many people connected to powerful abuse cases are never publicly held to account — and why that outcome is not accidental, but structural. She reflects on how Power protects itself, how institutions manage reputational risk, and why the public so often ends up with simplified “lone villain” stories instead of deeper systemic truth. 

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Anneke is not naming names or making accusations. She is describing the mechanics of how silence is produced.

She explains how responsibility becomes diluted inside large systems. How accountability is passed sideways instead of downward. How complexity becomes an excuse for inaction. And how discomfort becomes a reason not to look.

The curiosity gap is unsettling: if so many people sense something is wrong, why does nothing seem to change? Why do revelations feel explosive for a moment — and then quietly disappear? And why do institutions appear to survive every scandal while individuals absorb the cost?

Anneke suggests it’s because truth alone is not enough.

Truth needs alignment — legal, institutional, cultural, and emotional — to move anything. Without that alignment, truth becomes noise. It circulates. It trends. It fades.

She explains how power doesn’t usually block truth directly. It overwhelms it. With procedure. With delays. With complexity. With “ongoing investigations.” With “no further comment.” With time.

And time, she argues, is one of the most effective tools of avoidance.

She also talks about the psychological burden placed on survivors — how they are expected to be consistent, calm, articulate, unemotional, and perfect in order to be believed, while institutions are allowed vagueness, opacity, and silence.

That asymmetry is what keeps the system stable.

Anneke connects this to her own healing process. How moving forward required accepting that justice is not always external. That answers do not always arrive. That closure is often something survivors have to build themselves.

This clip isn’t about scandal.

It’s about why scandal doesn’t work.

Why outrage fades.

Why institutions endure.

Why silence outlasts noise.

And why healing has to be internal before anything else is possible.

This is the second half of Anneke’s story — not about what happened, but about why so little changes… and what it takes to live anyway.

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In my experience, all the perpetrators

that I had, so about 200 men, they were

all repeating something. They were all

because it was so specific for each one.

You know what they were putting out,

what they were dumping on me really

because the abuse, the sexual abuse is

like an exchange, an energetic exchange

where they are momentarily freed from

the burden that was put on their

shoulders by handing me the shame and

all the whatever it is, you know,

whatever story goes with it. And then I

get to feel that I'm bad or I get to

feel that I'm dirty or I get to feel

that I'm worthless or I get to feel that

I'm powerful. Whatever it is, it's a

projection that comes with the abuse

that the energetic exchange that I feel

comes from a very personal place in that

person.

Do you think that kind of abuse what you

went through is still going on today?

Well, why wouldn't it?

You'd like to think that that nowadays

uh it's harder to get away with those

kinds of secrets activities.

That's why I think it's coming out.

Mhm.

But it's but there's nothing that's

happened to really stop it.

What kind of thing coming out? Like

Epstein, do you mean?

Well, there's a reason why we don't get

the list, is there? I mean, there's a

reason why the Dutru case ended up being

just Mark Dutu imprisoned

and nobody ever named.

Um,

people have been named for years, you

know, but the most effective survivors

that named the most people were always

silenced. Um, I'm thinking of an

American survivor named Bryce Taylor

who wrote uh several books in the 80s

and 90s. She named everybody.

She just named everybody and nobody

knows who she is.

And people don't.

She's even been discredited within the

community of people that supposedly are

interested in this.

Well, I suppose there has to be even if

it's 0.001% of the people. Some of them

some people might imagine situations.

There might be some people do do you

think who might be fabricating things?

Well, if people are fabricating things,

then I think it often

Okay. Well, two things.

Sometimes I get people I don't

necessarily believe myself because I'm a

provider, right? So, I get people and

if I don't feel the motive or if I

suspect that the motive is a little off,

then I don't necessarily believe what

that person says,

the motive of the person coming to see

you.

Yes.

I said what

why they're naming famous perpetrators.

I see. I'm not necessarily believe what

they say, but I'm going to be present

for them all the same.

Whereas when it's a public affair and

somebody would somebody like that who

comes to a provider and just tries to

get something. So, so this so so already

you have to be pretty mentally ill to

make up a story and then go to a

provider and talk about these things. So

then that mentally ill person is coming

to one person because they want me to

think that they're very special or they

want me to think something. They want

something from me.

Now that person would never go public.

So when someone does that publicly,

I think that somebody that it is on

purpose

for to create a disinformation situation

where somebody is either unbelievable or

somebody is purposely lying to create

the the doubt

on purpose from the people that are

still trying to control everything.

So they'll come out and say something

ridiculous so that everybody says, "Oh

god, all of this is nonsense."

There you go.

You've got this book out. What's it

called and what's it about?

Well, my book is a memoir and it's

called Quest for Love and Memoir of a

Child Sex Slave.

And um it is as I said about the last

year of um

nu time in inside the network and and I

want to say that I identify if I

identify as anything it's as a writer

and maybe it would have been nice to

write about lovely things and make up

nice stories and everything but so I

write about my own experience and um

hopefully it can bring you into this

theme

where however difficult it is, there's

also you you can feel supported as you

read it. hopefully that you know that

you're being taken to a place that at

least you can handle, you know, and

obviously you have to choose yourself if

you can't handle it, but that at least

there's psychological support for you to

get through it without being

um you know, things being thrown at

Thank you.