Warrior

“You are in Great Pain, 

aren't you?

You KNOW 

What Evil lurks in The Hearts of Men, 

for you have •seen• 

That Evil in Your OWN Heart. 

Every Man pays A Price for Redemption 

— This is Yours.”

“I’m not lookin' for Redemption!”

“You Have 

NO CHOICE --

You WILL be redeemed, 

Because •I• will Teach you to 

USE Your Black Shadow 

to FIGHT Evil.”

“So, you know, I have felt that 

The Men have suffered a great deal 

in losing The Wild Man, 

which is a certain form of 

spontaneity connected with 

The Wilderness itself. 

And they’ve suffered a great deal 

since the Second World War 

in losing The Warrior. 

It’s very strange how this works.

We gave up the The King, that is, 

we founded our country 

with getting rid of The King. 

And you know, 

The King is weak in American Men also 

How can it be otherwise?

MOYERS: 

The King being–

BLY: 

The King [being] The Part of The Man 

that determines What He is Going to Do Now. 

What My Course is Going to Be.

“ On December 16, 1961, The World turned upside down and inside out, and I was born, screaming, in America.

It was the end of 

The American Dream, 

just before we lost our innocence irrevocably, 

and the TV Eye brought 

The Horror of Our Lives 

into our homes for all to see.

I was told when I grew up, 

I could be anything I wanted – 

A Fireman, 

A Policeman, 

A Doctor. 

Even President, 

it seemed. 

And for the first time in The History of Mankind, 

something new called 

An 'Astronaut.'

But like many kids growing up 

on a steady diet of Westerns, 

I always wanted to be 

The Cowboy Hero :– 

That Lone Voice in The Wilderness 

fighting Corruption and Evil, wherever I found it, 

and standing for 

Freedom, Truth and Justice.

And in my 

Heart of Hearts, 

I still track the remnants 

of That Dream, wherever I go, 

on my never-ending ride 

into The Setting Sun.

“.....Unbelievable. 

And you know what’s wild, people’s, er, 

attitudes in the States about it. 

Talking about Kennedy, people come up to me :

“Bill, quit talking about Kennedy, man. 

Let it •go•. It was a long •time• ago – 

just •forget• about it.”

And I’m like 

“Alright, then don’t bring up Jesus to me.”

Why….?

And Why 

The Hell Not….?

“Because you’re PISSING PEOPLE OFF, that’s •WHY• !!”

You bring up Kennedy, 

you alienate registered Republicans;

You bring up Jesus, 

you alienate atheists, liberals,

Movement Skeptics,

The Ron Paul People,

and 

ALL non-Christians —

•Nobody• has a problem with 

King Arthur....

The man didn’t even instigate A Crusade, for crying out loud....

“Bill, you know Jesus died for your si -”

Yeah, well it was 

a long time ago. 

Forget about it!

How about this —

Get Pilate to release the fuckin’ files..!!

Quit washing your hands Pilate – Release The Goddam Files. 

Who else was on that grassy Golgotha that day?

“Bill, it was just, you know, hur, 

The Taking-over of Democracy

by a Totalitarian Government, 

let it go—”

" There is A Way of Bringing up The Child of a Samurai. 

From the time of infancy one should 

encourage bravery and avoid trivially frightening or teasing the child. 

If a person is affected by cowardice 

as A Child, it remains a lifetime scar. 

It is a mistake for parents to thoughtlessly make their children dread lightening, or to have them not go into dark places, or to tell them frightening things in order to stop them from crying.

Furthermore, A Child will become timid 

if he is scolded severely. 

One should not allow bad habits to form. 

After a bad habit is ingrained, 

although you admonish the child, 

he will not improve. 

As for such things as proper speaking and good manners, 

gradually make the child aware of them. 

Let him not know avarice. 

Other than that, if he is of a normal nature, 

he should develop well by the way he is brought up. 

Moreover, the child of parents who 

have a bad relationship will be unfilial. 

This is natural. Even the birds and beasts are affected 

by what they are used to seeing and hearing 

from the time they are born. 

Also, the relationship between Father and Child 

may deteriorate because of A Mother's Foolishness. 

A Mother loves Her Child above all things, 

and will be partial to The Child 

that is corrected by His Father. 

If she becomes The Child's Ally, 

there will be discord between Father and Son. 

Because of the shallowness of her mind, 

A Woman sees The Child as her support in old age. "

“So therefore, with My Father, I do not want or need to be shamed by him any longer. 

Well, that means that there has been some movement to get the doorknob on the inside of the door. 

That’s called A Warrior. A 

Warrior is NOT someone that goes off and kills. That’s the negative Warrior. 

That’s the one that’s without The King. 

But each of us needs our Warrior desperately.

Women have a very fierce Warrior in them, you know. They have a very fierce Warrior. And I would say that the women, in the last 20 years, have a much greater sense of their own boundaries than The Men do.

So, you know, I have felt that the men have suffered a great deal in losing THE WILD MAN, which is a certain form of spontaneity connected with The Wilderness ITSELF. 

And they’ve suffered a great deal since the Second World War in losing The Warrior. 

It’s very strange how this works.

We gave up The King, that is, we founded Our Country with getting rid of The King. And you know, The King is WEAK in American Men also; how can it be otherwise?”

MOYERS: 

The King being–

BLY: 

The King [being] the part of The Man that determines what he is going to do now. What my course is going to be.

MOYERS: 

The King can decide that for himself. That’s the whole image.

BLY: 

This is the inner King, the one who’s down there, who decides. And when he comes in “Follow your bliss,” is what Joe Campbell said. That means that the king decides that. You don’t join IBM and then do what your boss wants you to do. That means there’s only one king in the whole thing, and that’s the boss, and everybody else is a non-king.

MOYERS: 

It’s the way the world works.

BLY: 

Yeah, it’s the way it works. That’s the way it destroys inner kings in all of the men and in most of the women. So the king, then, is that part of you that can decide. And I mean it’s very private, too, because there are various kinds of kings.

The Majors Tom : GoatBoy

On December 16, 1961, The World turned upside down and inside out, and I was born, screaming, in America.

CUT: Tower Bridge – The Horse and Rider cross The Bridge, approaching the camera

It was the end of the American Dream, just before we lost our innocence irrevocably, 

and the TV Eye brought the horror of our lives 

into our homes for all to see.

CUT: The rider dismounts upon a cobblestoned street, and leads his horse past the burning shells of televisions.

FX: howling wolves

I was told when I grew up, 

I could be anything I wanted – 

A Fireman, a Policeman, a Doctor. 

Even President, it seemed. 

And for the first time in The History of Mankind, something new called 

an 'Astronaut.'

But like many kids growing up on a steady diet of Westerns, 

I always wanted to be The Cowboy Hero :– 

That Lone Voice in The Wilderness 

fighting Corruption and Evil wherever I found it, 

and standing for Freedom, Truth and Justice.

CUT: The Dark Rider throws a lighted match into an oil drum full of newspapers.

And in my Heart of Hearts, 

I still track the remnants of That Dream, 

wherever I go, 

on my never-ending ride 

into The Setting Sun.

Fear and Love

Charismatic/Narcissistic Sexual Predator : So now let us begin Life Line exercise number one. Please press “stop” now. 

The Flying Monkey obeys.

Flying Monkey : As you can see, the Life Line is divided into two polar extremes. 

Fear and love. 

Fear is in the negative energy spectrum. 

And Love is in the positive energy spectrum. 

Sean Smith: <Muttered> No duh…. 

Kitty Farmer: Excuse me? “No duh…” is a product of Fear. 

NO —WRONG : Ridicule is a product of Love.

This is Another Proof of The Truth that Love and Hate are in-fact THE SAME EMOTION, merely pointing in opposite directions.

Captain Ahab LOVES Moby Dick enough to follow him to The Very Ends of The Earth - So that they can kill each other.

Nothing Could Be More Intimate.

Now, on each card is a character dilemma which applies to the Life Line.   

Kitty Farmer: Please… take this… 

<Kitty tries to hand a card to Seth Devlin who refuses to take it> 

Kitty Farmer: … Thank you. Please read each character dilemma aloud, and place an “X” on the Life Line in the appropriate place. Cherita? 

<Cherita gets up, stands by the blackboard, and reads from the card> 

Cherita Chen: Juanita has an important math test today. She’s known about the test for several weeks but has not studied. In order to keep from failing her class Juanita decides that she will cheat on the math test. 

<A Narcissist would experience no fear in deciding to cheat, which is why they constantly do it — it’s as natural to them as breathing;

Moreover still, they regard it is not only acceptable, but moral, ethical and good — heroic, even, since the only love of any kind they have or are capable of experiencing, much less expressing is their own self-Love

Getting caught cheating or trying to cheat, and being punished for it is absolutely morally unacceptable to a Narcissist. Because that means that must have been stupid, incautious and careless, otherwise , how else could they have ever allowed themself to get caught by one of The Ants...? > 

Kitty Farmer: Good, good. Very good. Mr. Darko. 

<Donnie gets up, stands by the blackboard, and reads from the card> 

Donnie Darko: “Ling Ling finds a wallet on the ground filled with money. 

[ ...as well as, though though nor specified here aside from the driver’s licence, we may assume, a fair number of other things — wallets contain far more things than mere money,  so the fact that this one was found FULL of money is really only of very minor, second-order significance in influencing the owners level of desire/interest in having the wallet returned to them — 

One thing that is worth consideratio

She takes the wallet to the address on the driver’s license but keeps the money inside the wallet.” 

A Reasonable Punishment — We May Consider This to represent Asshole Tax.

<Scoffs> I-I’m sorry Mrs. Farmer. I don’t get this. 

Kitty Farmer: Just place an X on the Life Line in the appropriate place. 

Donnie Darko: No, I mean I know what to do, I just don’t get this. You can’t just lump things into two categories. Things aren’t that simple. 

Kitty Farmer: The Life Line is divided that way. 

Donnie Darko: Life isn’t that simple. I mean who cares if Ling Ling returns the wallet and keeps the money? It has nothing to do with either fear or love. 

Kitty Farmer: Fear and love are the deepest of human emotions. 

Donnie Darko: Okay. But you’re not listening to me. There are other things that need to be taken into account. Like the whole spectrum of human emotion. You can’t just lump everything into these two categories and then just deny everything else. 

Kitty Farmer: If you don’t complete the assignment you’ll get a zero for the day. 

Donnie Darko: <deep breath>…

The Ride, in fact, is Made Up of Denial

"Today, a Young Man on acid realised that :

• All matter is merely energy condensed to a slow vibration. 

• That we are all OneConsciousness, experiencing itself subjectively. 

• There is no such thing as 'Death', Life is only a Dream and We're The Imagination of Our Selves." 

"Here's Tom with the weather." 

"Wow! Did you see the fuckin news!" By the way that thing I just did about matter is energy condensed to a slow vibration, we are all one conssciousness experiencing itself subjectively, and dadada, that thing I just did? 

Einstein proved that...! 

[Cosmic Manic Joker Laugh]

Not Complete, Even Though Correct.

 It's called Quantum Physics. 

Anyway I was tripping one day with Al, which was really weird, 'cos he's dead.

 And I said 'Al do you notice the walls are fuckin breathing right now?'

"Bill I noticed the same thing, I've got to jot some numbers down real quick, I just had a fuckin idea" 

"I saw your head light up like a fuckin bulb Al, this is unbelievable. 

Its called Quantum Physics, 

its called The 20th Century... 

We'll get there one day. "

You've been fantastic and I hope you enjoyed it.

 There is a point - is there a point to all of this...? 

Let's find a point. 

Is there a point to my act? 

I would say there is. 
I have to.

The World is like a Ride at an amusement park. 

And when you choose to go on it, you think that it's Real because that's how powerful our minds are. 

[Audience member shouts 'bollocks'] 

There is a lot denial in this ride, 

The Ride, in fact, is made up of Denial.

"All things work in Goatboys favour". 

The World is like a ride at an amusement park. It goes up and down and round and round. It has thrills and chills and it's very brightly coloured and it's very loud and it's fun, for a while. 

Some people have been on The Ride for a long time and they begin to question, 

"Is this Real, or is this Just a Ride?" 

And Other People have remembered, and they come back to us, they say, 

"Hey - don't worry, don't be afraid, ever, because, 

This is Just a Ride..." 

And We... 

Kill those people. 

Ha ha !!

"Shut him up!" 

"We have a lot invested in this ride! 

Shut him up! 

Look at my furrows of worry. 

Look at my big bank account and my family. 

This just has to be real." 

Just a ride. 

But we always kill those good guys who try and tell us that, you ever notice that? And let the demons run amok?

Jesus : 

Murdered

Martin Luther King :

Murdered

Malcolm X :

Murdered

Gandhi :

Murdered

John Lennon :

Murdered

Reagan : 

Wounded.

But it doesn't matter because: 

It's Just a Ride. 

And we can change it anytime we want. 

It's only a choice. 

No effort, no work, no job, no savings and money. 

A choice, right now, between Fear and Love.

The Eyes of Fear want you to put bigger locks on your doors, buy guns, close yourself off. 

The Eyes of Love, instead, see All of Us as one. 

Here's what we can do to change The World, right now, to a Better Ride :

Take all that money that we spend on weapons and defences each year and instead spend it feeding and clothing and educating The Poor of The World, which it would many times over, not one human being excluded, and we could explore Space, together, both inner and outer, Forever, in Peace. 

Thank you very much, you've been great. 

[Applause] 

I hope you enjoyed it. 

London, you were fantastic, thank you, thank you very much. 

[bow] [bow] 

[three shots ring out - Bill crumples to the ground] 

So we then move on you see to another possible response, not repentance, but that of resignation :

"I quit The Game, I won't play it." 

There are all sorts of ways of doing this but basically this is an aristocratic posture, 

"You ordinary mortals with all your Desires, and all your Involvements are deluded - You Get attached to Things.

But there are a certain minority of Us, Who are above it all. 

And since We've resigned We're not going to follow This now. " 

This as I say is an artistocratic, [be aware]  that it may be aristocratic in two ways : There's the aristocracy of the Hindu Sannyasi the people outside and above caste and there's also the aristocracy of the actual aristocrat - I get so mixed up with my British and American pronunciation on this - but 

The Aristocrat who comes on with the position of always being bored, who has complete sangfreud who is imperturbable 

Kaiser Ling's study of this mentality is marvelous in his book of Europe the essay on Hungary portrays the rightly he calls the grand signeur. 

He always identified himself as a type disrobe the grand familia cannot be saved,  who could always be always rise to the occasion under any social circumstances whatsoever, without trying to do so or without apparently trying to do so.

In other words if he goes to the Opera wearing blue jeans he will somehow make it apparent that everybody else is improperly dressed.

This is a very interesting type of person you know there was an essay written by someone whose name I can't remember in the Centennial Review which contrasted the Attitude to Time of the

aristocracy, the bourgeoisie and the proletariat; 

It said The Aristocrat lives in The Past because his ancient forbears have achieved everything and his very by the fact of his birth in his existence he has nothing to strive for and he somehow I never need overdo it - he's always cool.

The Bourgeois on the other hand feels that it's necessary to arrive 

and he's always striving for The Future

Whereas the aristocrat lives in  The Past, on the other hand, 
The Proletarian lives in The Present because he doesn't care about his reputation, and he just lives.

And so of the three bourgeois The Sucker 

because the formula is always cheated because, well, it's going to come someday, see, you're going to get it - even your money when you pull it out of your pocket,  there says on it 

"Promise to Pay" 

- watch out for that!

It's poverty and the bourgeoisie use the news on from the whole the whole economy is the United States being the great bourgeois country is in a state of expectancy of feeling happy, not on what you have but on what is going to come 

The Aristocrat is happy on what has happened, these great achievements of the past mean there's nothing left to do except sort of glory in it.

The Proletarian wants it right now, see and they often get it; 

About the poor bourgeois, my uncle once said 

The Poor have it given them 

The Rich have it anyway so 

The Middle Classes do without

So both the aristocrats and the sannyasi have resigned.

Now, the more interesting of the two types is Acosta Sonia who resigns from The World Game, let me review for you the role of the sannyasin in Indian culture you know there are four castes because the priests or Brahmins the caste of warriors and rulers called Kshatriya the caste of merchants called Vasia and the caste of workers called Shudra 

And to belong to a caste means that you are in  the state called grihastha, which is householder that is to say you are One Who is Involved in The World, you are engaged in what is called loca Sandra and loca means The Well, Sandra, upholding, upholding the going on of The Great Illusion and so you are playing for money for position for status, for success and hoping above all that you could win - You can beat The Game.

But it's supposed in the same culture that every man who attains the age of 45 or so, who has now a grown son to take over his work, will quit the game, will resign and so, when you come to be at age you're supposed to move from the state of grihastha, householder to vanaprastha which means forest dweller.

You give away all your possessions to your son, you change your name, you take off your clothes and go more or less naked, because you have abandoned status.

So in spite of the fact that he has no status, he is however respected in the culture for being an upper outcast, whereas the Aborigines of the Indian Peninsula are Untouchables, the lower outcast and the upper outcast always mimics the lower.

For example Buddha had his disciple wear ochre robes because ochre robes were worn by convicts. 

So in the same way if today, in San Quentin, they all wear blue jeans with special kind pants and a kind of a blue denim jacket and this could well become the uniform of a new kind of sannyasi in the

Western world and to some extent this is happening.

So this guy says 

"The Game is not worth the cap, 
the richer I get, the more miserable I get"

You know how this is, you think that your problems may be monitored and you get more money.

What do you do then we've got enough money, you start worrying about your health and you can never never stop worrying about that 

Or if you're not worried about your health you worry about politics, if somebody's going to take your money away from you, worried about taxes, about Who's Cheating You.

And so a person who goes through all that he's finally 

"I don't think The Game's worth it, I'm going to resign."

And so resignation or renunciation the difference from repentance it hasn't it hasn't got the same kind of passion in the resolve that the repentant person feels he's wrong who made a mistake has committed sin and wants to get better about the renounce first didn't concerns of that country he knows that better progress whether moral or material is an illusion and you have to understand this when you approach for example the study of Buddhism I think one of the most withering remarks I ever heard, from an oriental, he was Japanese he said once he was 

"Never forget that whereas Jesus was the Son of a Carpenter, Buddha was the son of a King" 

You know Wow! Take that! 

And it's choose it is something always about about that this is not the this is easy to see which Christianity historically was the protest of the slave class again if the Roman, establishment Buddhism was different it was the abandonment of position by an aristocracy  - That We've done it We've seen it all we've had it so now we check out and we will be therefore we will resign from all games and if you follow this attitude to an extreme you're going to make because it all goes to the center the same discovery that is made by the person who follows repentance to an extreme.

Just as The Repentant Person discovers that his contrition is phoney the person who tries to resign will discover that he can't, that 

There is no way of not playing games 

Let's go a little bit then into this Game Theory there are a lot of games that we play and not only the game of 
Can I get One Up on The Universe,  of Pretending That I'm me This Ego, With Its

Name and Its Role, The Man, 

but also we have what I call meta-games, for example the game 

My Games Better Than Your Game,

or the game 

"I Won't Play With You Because Your Game is Vulgar, Stupid, Banal, Inferior or Whatever." 

One of the most, therefore, effective games in saying My Game is Better Than Your Game is that 

I'm Not Playing Games At All.

You are now at the lowest level we find that in the form of :

You're Not Sincere, I am sincere 

You are Fooling, I'm not Fooling You and Being Honest with You 

Now, that's a great game and of resignation is a form of it as to say you are children claim with toys and you haven't ever really woken up to the important concerns of life you haven't reached the dimension of ultimate sincerity all, that is to say Ultimate Reality, and in order to reach it you have to 

Resign from Distractions 

You hear a great deal in the literature about meditation of getting rid of distractions wandering for well I you might ask when you think about all that what are wandering for what are wrong for what shouldn't I be doing with my mind, well they all say actually every day you think about this and then you think about that in your thoughts run on in an undisciplined way from one association to another and you can't keep your mind fully on the job or whatever so you see, you're supposed to announce that because that's True Reality all those wandering thoughts they're not about the

importance now what's important what should you keep your mind on well, something just as long as you keep your mind on.

In an instruction one of the Buddhist scriptures says about concentration, when they concentrate on a yellow square on the ground, on the burning tip of an incense stick, on your navel, on the tip of your nose on the, center between the eyes, or anything.

And then the footnote the commentator adds 

"But not on any wicked thing." 

As you know that commentators the world over, they never have any [sense of humour].

So anything will do just so long as you keep your mind on it, and don't wander, stick to it, so wandering is involvement in games,

by this kind of definition, so then you try to get out can you now get out can you stop competing with other human beings 

In ancient Greek society there was a place in the center of the community called the argon AG om and this was a place for contests where they had wrestling matches and other athletic events because all the men were constantly trying to show who was the

better and from this were the agonyax which means these the contest itself held in the argon we get our word agony, the struggle and striving to be superior and a lot of people that you meet among you,  you will recognize this among your friends all the time are not happy unless they are involved in the contest it doesn't matter what it is, so long as they're trying to beat something they're  happy 

And you may say over everything :

"You know can't we just sit around and talk instead of having to play a game, or bet or do something to prove who's the stronger...?" 

I was married to a girl who never was happy unless she was engaged in some kind of combat, when of course I had a game, it didn't look like one,  and so it was a very superior game just because it didn't look like one,  but it was a form of the game, my games that renews so you can't really not-play, you may go through the motions of not playing, but you still are. 

The Psychonauts Field Manual by BlueFluke