Yo, Don't I Got Some Rights?

The Commission :

This plenary session of the

Pennsylvania Athletic Commission

is convened in order to consider

the application of Rocky Balboa

for the issuance of a discretionary

professional boxing license

due to his ineligibility to be

licensed as a matter of right.

Mr. Balboa, you're welcome here.

Since you're representing yourself...

we invite you to make an opening

statement, if you'd like to.

Rocky :

No, I was just curious 

how I did, that's all.

The Commission :

Alright, well, The Medical

Advisory Board has informed us

that the battery of tests

to which you've been subjected —

you've passed these tests

with flying colors.

And we congratulate you for that.

……Thanks.

The Commission :

However, This Commission 

in good conscience,

cannot recommend you for A License;

and We therefore 

Deny your application.

…..Didn't I Do 

what you asked…?

The Commission :

Yes, you did.

So I should get 

A License, right?

The Commission :

Not exactly.

So why’d you give 

me all them tests

if you was never passing me?

The Commission :

We've gotta stand by

our decision here

and we have to 

Deny your request for

A License at this time.

(Rocky sadly stands, goes to leave The Room — )

(— turns to fight)

Yo, don't I got 

some Rights?

The Commission :

What Rights do you think

you're referring to?

Like in that official paper

they wrote down the street?

(condescending head-shake)

That's The Bill of Rights.

Bill of Rights — Don't it 

say something about 

going after what 

makes you happy?

No, that's "the pursuit of Happiness."

But what's your point?

My Point is, I'm 

pursuing something,

and nobody looks 

too happy about it.

The Commission :

But we're just 

looking out for 

your interests.

I appreciate that, but maybe you're

looking out for your interests more.

You shouldn't ask people to come here

and pay the freight on something.

They pay, it still ain't good enough.

You think that's right?

Maybe you're doing your job, but why

you gotta stop me from doing mine?

If you're willing to

go through all the

battling to get where

you want to get...

...who's got the right to stop you?

Maybe you got something you never

finished, something you wanna do.

Something you never said

to somebody, something!

And you're told no,

even after you pay your dues.

Who's got the right

to tell you that? Who? Nobody!

It's your right to listen to your gut.

It's nobody's right to say no...

...after you earn the right to be what

you wanna be or do what you wanna do!

The older I get, the more things

I gotta leave behind. That's Life.

The only thing I'm asking you guys

to leave on the table is what's right.

The Apprentice

People will always be 

there who will tell you 

“Betting on a Sure Thing…? 

It Doesn’t Exist — 

No such animal.”

….usually they are the ones 

who don’t want you 

to bet against THEM.

Corporate America :

(flipping through a clipboard)

Mercy. What a gruelling

line of Inquiry. 

The Law Man :

(poking The Bear --)

....Must have a familiar ring, 

The Questions in advance --

That Mitchell and Webb Look - Apprentice

".....as you can see it's

 just not working."

It's a shame -- I thought it'd be interesting 

to watch talented business people competing 

for a prestigious job -- 

“I wonder maybe that's 

The Problem...”

“Go on --“

“Well, how would it 

be if instead of lots

of talented Business-people competing

for a prestigious job, it was Idiots 

competing for a relatively 

Junior job....? 

"Idiots?" 

Yeah -- We deliberately pick 16 Idiots,

REAL Idiots, arseholes, as well, and then 

We get to watch them screw everything up; 

it'll be brilliant !!!

But if it's so obvious from the start 

that They're Idiots, surely everyone would 

just EXPECT them 

to screw everything up, 

so what's The Point....?”

“The Point is, that 

everyone will think that 

THEY'RE the only person 

to have NOTICED that 

The Contestants are all 

idiots; I've got a hunch 

that for some reason,

 people will think that this 

NEVER stops being worth commenting-upon.”

"About The Prize -- I mean, in The Pilot, 

it was a one million pound-job; we can't 

give a million pounds to An Idiot... 

That's what The Lottery is for. 

So, what's the smallest 

LARGE amount of Money...? 

You know, the sort of amount 

that an idiot would consider it 

worth totally humiliating himself for?

It's £10-Grand -- the smallest LARGE 

amount of Money is £100 Grand. 

Excellent! 

Err, I think I can see it working, 

but surely only for one series --

I mean, once people can SEE 

that all the contestants are idiots, 

no one will want to apply...”

Idiots will -- in fact, they'll make 

the application process a lot easier,

'cuz We'll ONLY get idiots!” 

So it's coverage of Idiots, 

behaving idiotically for 

An Audience of Idiots..? 

Not JUST An Audience of Idiots --

there'll be a lot of other people 

who flatter themselves they're watching 

with a sense of irony and in some way 

haven't been taken in --

And remind Me -- How do these 

"ironic non-Idiots" show up in The Ratings....?

They show up the 

SAME, My Friend! 

.....They show up 

JUST The Same.....

Quiz Show - "An Inkling..." - Rob Morrow 

x David Paymer x Hank Azaria

Dan Enright : 

He blames Charles Van

Doren for his downfall. 

And of course, the real downfall of 

Herbert Stempel has always been, 

…  Herbert Stempel —

Albert Freedman : 

— Herbert Stempel, absolutely. 

Well, you met him :  Does he 

seem…. stable to you….?

The Law Man :

Well, I definitely have an inkling 

of what you're talking about …..

He told me this whole story about 

how when A Jew is on The Show, 

he always loses to A Gentile, and then, 

The Gentile wins more money. 

Dan Enright : 

Right? 

Albert Freedman : 

I mean, who could dream-up 

A Scheme like that?

Dan Enright : 

A Symptom of his 

Van Doren fixation!

The Law Man :

The thing of it is... 

I looked it up.

It's True —

Dan Enright : 

……we could check..?

Quiz Show - "Even More Insulting" - Rob Morrow x Martin Scorsese

The Law Man :

The Chairman's instructions are for me 

to get you up there as promptly as possible. 

The Questions are to take no longer than 15 minutes;

You're to receive The Questions in advance... 

and I'm to thank you for The Courtesy 

of attending this hearing. 

Corporate America :

(flipping through a clipboard)

Mercy. What a gruelling

line of Inquiry. 

The Law Man :

(poking The Bear --)

....Must have a familiar ring, 

The Questions in advance --

Corporate America :

Would you excuse us for a moment, 

please? And take this, please. Thank you.

The Wolf, The Ram and 

The Hart clear The Room --

Corporate America :

Young Man --

The Law Man :

The ratings went up 

if the same contestant

came back week after week. 

There was only one way 

for that to happen. 

You had to know that. 

Corporate America :

Young Man -- I sell over $ million 

a year worth of Geritol. Geritol. 

That's the kind of Businessman I am. 

That show, Twenty-One, cost me 

$ - / million year in, year out. 

Sales went up 50% when 

Van Doren was on. 

Fifty percent. 

So the very idea that 

I was unaware of 

every detail or 

aspect of that show's operation... 

well, frankly, it's.... it's 

very insulting.

The Law Man :

So you knew.

Corporate America :

 That's even more insulting.

The Law Man :

You had to know. 

That's what you just said.

Corporate America :

It's not about "What I Know";

It's about what you "know".

The Law Man :

You don't know 

what I know.

Corporate America :

You "know" that Dan Enright 

ran a crooked quiz show.

The Law Man :

Oh, he never informed you?

Corporate America :

(irridescent smirk) .....Did he?

The Law Man :

Let's see what he says. 

Corporate America :

Dan? Look, Dan Enright wants 

A Future in Television. Okay? 

What you have to 

understand is that
The Public has a 

very short memory. 

But Corporations, 

They never forget. 

The Law Man :

He's not that stupid. 

He knows he's through. 

Corporate America :

Oh, no. He'll be back. 

NBC's gonna go on. 

Geritol's gonna go on. 

It makes me wonder what you hope 

to accomplish with all this. 

The Law Man :

Don't worry. I'm 

just gettin' started. 

Corporate America :

But even The Quiz 

Shows'll be back. 

Why fix them? 

Think about it, will ya? 

You could do exactly 

the same thing 

by just making 

The Questions easier. 

See, The Audience didn't tune in to watch

some amazing display of intellectual ability :

They just wanted to 

watch The Money.

The Law Man :

(gobsmacked) Imagine if 

They could Watch You --

Corporate America :

(smiles) You're a bright young kid 

with a bright future --

Watch yourself out there.

Men are Dogs

Is ‘Gay’ Political?

  Ahead of the 2016 Brexit referendum in the UK, the actor Sir Ian McKellen was interviewed about which way he was planning to vote. The interview’s headline quote was ‘Brexit makes no sense if you’re gay.’ In the piece Sir Ian – who has done an enormous amount to advance fundamental gay rights over the decades – said that, looking at the vote from a gay perspective, ‘there’s only one point, which is to stay. If you’re a gay person, you’re An Internationalist.’⁴⁰ Presumably people who thought they were gay and thought they’d vote ‘leave’ had been doing it wrong all these years. As so often, far worse wars have been fought on the same terrain in America.

  The date of 21 July 2016 should have been a great moment for supporters of gay rights in the United States. That day Peter Thiel took to the stage of the Republican National Convention in Cleveland, Ohio, and addressed the main hall. A gay man had appeared on a Republican platform before, but not alone and not openly identifying as such. By contrast the co-founder of PayPal, an early investor in Facebook, made a clear and head-on reference to his sexuality as he endorsed Donald Trump as the candidate of the Republican Party for President. During his speech Thiel said, ‘I am proud to be gay. I am proud to be a Republican. But most of all I am proud to be an American.’ All of this was received with huge cheers in the hall. Such a situation would have been unimaginable even a few election cycles before. NBC was among the mainstream media to report all of this in a positive light. ‘Peter Thiel makes history at RNC’ ran the headline.

  The gay press was not so positive. America’s foremost gay magazine, Advocate, attacked Thiel in a long and curious piece consisting of an excommunication from the church of gay. The title read: ‘Peter Thiel Shows Us There’s a Difference between Gay Sex and Gay.’ The sub-banner on the 1,300-word piece by Jim Downs (an associate professor of history at Connecticut College) asked ‘When you abandon numerous aspects of queer identity, are you still LGBT?’

  While Downs conceded that Thiel is ‘a man who has sex with other men’, he questioned whether he was in any other way actually ‘gay’. ‘That question might seem narrow,’ the author admitted. ‘But it is [sic] actually raises a broad and crucial distinction we must make in our notions of sexuality, identity, and community.’ After pooh-poohing those who had hailed Thiel’s speech as any kind of watershed moment – let alone ‘progress’ – Downs pronounced his anathema : ‘Thiel is an example of a man who has sex with other men, but is not a gay man. Because he does not embrace the struggle of people to embrace their distinctive identity.’

  Exhibit A for this gay heresy-finder was that in his speech at the RNC Thiel had dismissed the endless high-profile rows about trans bathroom access, who should use which bathrooms and what facilities should be laid on where. Although Thiel had said that he didn’t agree with ‘every plank in our party’s platform’, he did state that ‘fake culture wars only distract us from our economic decline’. As he went on, ‘When I was a kid, the great debate was about how to defeat the Soviet Union. And we won. Now we are told that the great debate is about who gets to use which bathroom. This is a distraction from our real problems. Who cares?’ This went down very well in Cleveland. And if opinion polls are anything to go by it is a statement that would go down very well across America. It is demonstrably the case that more people are worried about the economy than are worried about bathroom access. But for Advocate this was a deviation too far.

  While reaffirming his own ‘sexual choices’ Thiel was guilty of ‘separating himself from gay identity’. His opinions on the relative ephemerality to the wider culture of transgender bathrooms ‘effectively rejects the conception of LGBT as a cultural identity that requires political struggle to defend’. Thiel was alleged to be part of a movement which since the 1970s had not ‘invested in the creation of a cultural identity to the extent that their forebears did’. The success of gay liberation had apparently stopped them doing this ‘cultural work’. But this was dangerous, as the recent massacre at a gay nightclub had shown in some unconnected way. The author left his readers with the powerful reminder that ‘The gay liberation movement has left us a powerful legacy, and protecting that legacy requires understanding the meaning of the term “gay” and not using it simply as a synonym for same-sex desire and intimacy.’⁴¹

  In fact the massacre at the Pulse nightclub in Orlando in June 2016 had been carried out by a young Muslim who swore allegiance to Islamic State (ISIS). Yet this detail didn’t detain Advocate or the Gay Pride march in New York later the same month. On that occasion the parade led with a huge rainbow banner emblazoned with the words ‘Republican Hate Kills!’, clearly forgetting that Omar Mateen had not been a member of the Republican Party.

  It isn’t just that the self-appointed organizers of the ‘gay community’ have a particular view of politics. They also have a specific view of the alleged responsibilities that being gay brings with it. In 2013 the novelist Bret Easton Ellis was reprimanded and banned from the annual media awards dinner by the gay organization GLAAD. He had been found guilty of tweeting views about the asinine nature of gay television characters that GLAAD said ‘the gay community had responded negatively to’.⁴² This censorious tone – the prim schoolmaster tone – is the same one Pink News unleashed with a straight face in 2018, with its list of ten ‘dos and don’ts’ for straight people on ‘how they should behave in gay bars’.⁴³ In all of these cases the normal instinct is to say ‘Just who the hell do you think you are?’ But after his reprimand for wrong-think Ellis managed to sum up what had become a whole part of the new gay problem. This was, as he said, that we had come to live in ‘The reign of The Gay Man as Magical Elf, who whenever he comes out appears before us as some kind of saintly E.T. whose sole purpose is to be put in the position of reminding us only about Tolerance and Our Own Prejudices and To Feel Good About Ourselves and to Be a Symbol.’

  The reign of the magical gay elf has indeed been settled for the time being as one of the acceptable ways in which society has made its peace with homosexuality. Gays can now marry like everybody else can pretend that they have children in exactly the same way as everybody else, and in general prove – as Dustin Lance Black and Tom Daley do on their YouTube channel – that gays are unthreatening people who actually spend their lives being cute and making cupcakes. As Ellis wrote, ‘The Sweet and Sexually Unthreatening and Super-Successful Gay is supposed to be destined to transform The Hets into noble gay-loving protectors – as long as the gay in question isn’t messy or sexual or difficult.’⁴⁴ 

The former enfant terrible of American fiction had put his finger on something here.

Power vs. Justice

Chomsky-Foucault Debate on Power vs Justice (1971)

A few clips of Noam Chomsky and Michel Foucault discussing justice, power, and the notion of human nature in their famous 1971 debate. This is a version of an upload from the previous channel. The translation is my own, although I referenced the published text (which by the way was edited by Foucault prior to publication, which is why there are various differences between the published transcript and the actual recording). The audio has also been improved. 

The debate was about human nature and took place in November 1971 at the Eindhoven University of Technology, in the Nederlands, as part of the “International Philosophers Project” initiated by the Dutch Broadcasting Foundation and arranged by the Dutch philosopher Fons Elders, who was also the moderator.

Chomsky on the "limits" of knowledge:   

 • Chomsky on the "Limits" of Knowledge ...  

#Philosophy #Chomsky #Foucault

Meaning and Value

“Writers can have Faith in Television. There is a lot of Money at stake, after all; and Television owns the best demographers applied Social Science has to offer, and these researchers can determine precisely what Americans in the 1990s are, want, see — what We as Audience want to See Ourselves as. 

Television, from The Surface on down, is about Desire. And, fiction-wise, Desire is the sugar in Human Food. 

The second Great-seeming thing is that Television looks to be an absolute godsend for a Human-subspecies that loves to Watch People but hates to be watched itself. For the television screen affords access only one-way. A psychic ball-check valve. We can see Them; They can’t see Us. We can relax, unobserved, as we ogle. I happen to believe this is why Television also appeals so much to lonely people. To voluntary shut-ins. 

Every lonely Human I know watches way more than the average U.S. six hours a day. The Lonely, like The Fictive, love one-way Watching. 

For Lonely People are usually lonely not because of hideous deformity or odour or obnoxiousness — in fact there exist today support - and social groups for persons with precisely these attributes. 

Lonely People tend, rather, to be lonely because they decline to bear the psychic costs of being around other Humans. They are allergic to People. People affect them too strongly.”

The New Critics, rather level-headedly at first, sought to dethrone The Author by attacking what They called “The Intentional Fallacy.” Writers are sometimes wrong about what their texts mean, or sometimes have no idea what they really mean. Sometimes The Text’s meaning even changes for The Writer. It doesn’t matter what The Writer means, basically, for the New Critics; it matters only what The Text says. This critical overthrow of creative intent set the stage for the poststructural show that opened a couple decades later. The deconstructionists (“deconstructionist” and “poststructuralist” mean the same thing, by the way : “poststructuralist” is what you call a deconstructionist who doesn’t want to be called a deconstructionist), explicitly following Husserl and Brentano and Heidegger the same way the New Critics had co-opted Hegel, see the debate over the ownership of Meaning as a skirmish in a larger war in Western philosophy over the idea that presence and unity are ontologically prior to expression. There’s been this longstanding deluded presumption, they think, that if there is an utterance then there must exist a unified, efficacious presence that causes and owns that utterance. The poststructuralists attack what they see as a post-Platonic prejudice in favour of presence over absence and Speech over Writing. We tend to trust Speech over Writing because of the immediacy of The Speaker: he’s right there, and we can grab him by the lapels and look into his face and figure out just exactly what one single thing he means. But the reason why the poststructuralists are in the literary theory business at all is that they see Writing, not Speech, as more faithful to the metaphysics of true expression. 

For Barthes, Derrida, and Foucault, Writing is a better animal than Speech because it is iterable; it is iterable because it is abstract; and it is abstract because it is a function not of presence but of absence : The Reader’s absent when The Writer’s writing, and The Writer’s absent when The Reader’s reading. 

For the deconstructionist, then, A Writer’s circumstances and intentions are indeed a part of The “Context” of A Text, but Context imposes no real cinctures on The Text’s Meaning, because Meaning in Language requires a cultivation of absence rather than presence, involves not the imposition but the erasure of Consciousness. This is so because these guys — Derrida following Heidegger and Barthes Mallarmé and Foucault God knows who — see literary language as not A Tool but An Environment. A Writer does not wield Language; he is subsumed in it. Language speaks us; Writing writes; etc. 

Hix makes little mention of Heidegger’s Poetry, Language, Thought or Derrida’s Margins of Philosophy, where all this stuff is set out most clearly, but he does quote enough Barthes — “To write is… to reach that point where only Language acts, performs,’ and not Me’” — so you get the idea that Author-as-owner is not just superfluous but contradictory, and enough Foucault—“The Writing of our day has freed itself from the necessity of ‘expression’; [it is] an interplay of signs, regulated less by the content it signifies than by the very nature of the signifier” — so you can see that even the New Critics’ Holy Text disappears as the unitary lodestone of Meaning and Value. 

For Hix’s teachers, trying to attribute Writing’s meaning to a static text or a human author is like trying to knit your own body, your own needles. Hix has an even better sartorial image: “Previously, The Text was a cloth to be unraveled by The Reader; if The Cloth were unwound all the way, The Reader would find The Author holding the other end. But Barthes makes The Text A Shroud, and no one, not even a corpse, is holding the other end.”

Perform Sex

 

The People screamed, 

The Fire went everywhere. 

So I was called into the office in the next couple of days. And who do I see when I sit down in the office, waiting like you're in the jail or you're in the principal's office? I see Timothy Treadwell. I was like, "Hey, How are you? I know I've seen you. I'm Jewel." He said, "I'm Tim." I said, "What are you in for?" He said, "I'm in for walking funny in the dining room." He said, "What did you do?" I said, "I lit the soup cart on fire." He said, "That was you?" 

And you know, it wasn't love at first sight, but it was certainly kindred spirits. 

Only Timmy is the boss of all foxes and all bears. You're their ruler. Look at that face. Hey, thanks for being my friend. This is so good. Does that feel good? We patrol the Grizzly Sanctuary together. How did we meet? Over a decade ago. He left his mother and father's side, promptly peed on my shoes, pooped on my clothes, that was it. He was my friend. Timmy, the fox. Yep. And we watch over things. And he's the boss. Takes care of everything. Yep, yep. He says, "I love the way you pet." I think one of the things that's really important is you can see the bond that has developed between this very wild animal and this very, fairly wild person. And you realize he has this gorgeous fur, and people are trying to kill him for it with steel door traps and cruel farming practices. And other people run him down on horses for sport. Fox hunting. We want this to end. Between Timmy, the fox, this beautiful fox, and me, we ask the public, please stop killing and hurting these foxes and torturing them. Don't you think? If they knew how beautiful he was, and how sweet he was, they would never hurt him. Thanks. 

Timothy used his camera as a tool 

to get his message across. 

Sometimes it was very playful. 

Do another take here. 

I fucked up the last one. 

Almost fell off the cliff. 

I'm a fucking asshole. 

Behind me is the Grizzly Sanctuary and also behind me, hidden down below in those trees somewhere, is my camp. 

I must stay incognito. 

I must hide from the authorities. 

I must hide from people 

who would harm me. 

I must now hide from people 

that seek me out because 

I've made some sort of, 

I don't want to say celebrity, 

but they come to Alaska and 

hear about Treadwell in the bush 

and they want to go find him. 

Well, they can't. 

I'm hidden down below. 

No one knows where I am. 

Even I don't know where I am. 

That's pretty shitty. Let's do 

a really short take here. 

But as a filmmaker, he was methodical.

Whatever.

Often repeating takes times. 
One more really short, excellent take. Let's just really sum it up. Here we go. This is gonna be the motherfucker. Behind me is the Grizzly Sanctuary, and also hidden below is my camp. For I must now remain hidden from the authorities, from people who would harm me, from people who would seek me out as a story. My future helping the animals depends on it. I must be a spirit in the wilderness. With himself as the central character, he began to craft his own movie, something way beyond the wildlife film. There is going to be a number of takes I'm gonna do. These are called "Wild Timmy Jungle Scenes." We're gonna do several takes of each where I'll do it with a bandanna on, maybe a bandanna off. Maybe two different colored bandannas. Some without a bandanna, some with the camera being held. I kind of stumbled. Let's do it again. So the basic deal is that this stuff could be cut into a show later on, but who knows what look I had, whether I had the black bandanna or no bandanna. Very rarely the camo one, but I like the camo look. Both cameras rolling. Both cameras rolling. Both cameras rolling! Sexy green bandanna, last take of the evening. I'm on my way to the creek. I need to get water. And there's a super-duper low tide. Full moon tonight, and action. 
In his action movie mode, Treadwell probably did not realize that seemingly empty moments had a strange, secret beauty. Sometimes images themselves developed their own life, 
their own mysterious stardom. 
Starsky and Hutch. Over. 
Beyond his posings, the camera was his only present companion. 
It was his instrument to explore the wilderness around him, 
but increasingly it became something more. 
He started to scrutinize his innermost being, his demons, his exhilarations. 
Facing the lens of a camera took on the quality of a confessional. 
Covering various years, the following samples illustrate the search for himself. 
If there... I have no idea if there's a God. But if there's a God, God would be very, very... pleased with me. If he could just watch me here, how much I love them, how much I adore them, how respectful I am to them. How I am one of them. And how the studies they give me, the photographs, the video... And take that around for no charge to people around the world. It's good work. I feel good about it. I feel good about myself doing it. And I want to continue, and I hope I can. I really hope I can. But if not, be warned. I will die for these animals. I will die for these animals. I will die for these animals. Thank you so much for letting me do this. Thank you so much for these animals, for giving me a life. I had no life. Now I have a life. Now, enough of that. Now let the expedition continue. It's off to Timmy, the fox. We've gotta find Banjo. He's missing! And that's my story here, for me, Timothy Treadwell, the kind warrior. Can I take it? I'm trying. Okay, yeah, I can do it. Yeah. Why not? Why not? I've crossed the halfway point. Government's given me all they have. So far. I've stood up to it. I've had danger in the boat, almost died. I've almost fallen off a cliff. Yeah. The danger factor's about to amp up in the Maze. The Maze is always the most dangerous. 
Lord, I do not want to be hurt by a bear. I do not. 

I always cannot understand why

 girls don't wanna be with me 

for a long time, because 

I have really a nice 

personality. I'm fun. 
I'm very, very good in the... 
You're not supposed to say 

that when you're a guy. 
But I know I am. 

They know I am. And... 
I don't fight with them, 

I'm so passive. Bit of a patsy! 
Is that a turnoff to girls, 

to be a patsy? I mean it's not... 
it's not that I'm a total great guy. 
I'm a lot of fun and 

have a good life going. 

I don't know what's going on. 

I always wished I was gay. Would've been a lot easier. You know? You can just "bing-bing-bing." Gay guys have no problem. I mean, they go to 

restrooms and truck stops, and 

they perform sex. It's like so 

easy for 'em and stuff. 

But you know what? 
Alas, Timothy Treadwell 

is not gay. Bummer!

I love girls! And girls... 

Girls need a lot more... 

need a lot more, you know, 

finesse and care, 
and I like that a bit. 

But when it goes bad 

and you're alone, it's like... 

Well, you know, 

you can't rebound 

like you can if you were gay. 

I'm sure gay people have problems too, but 

not as much as one 

goofy straight guy named 

Timothy Treadwell. 

Anyway, that's my story. 

That's my story. I love you. Look at you. You're the best little fox. 

But how did I come into this work, Iris? 

Did you ever get the story? 

I was troubled. I was troubled. I drank a lot. 

Did you know that? You wouldn't even know what that is. But 

I used to drink to the point

 of that I guess I was either 

gonna die from it 

or break free of it. 

But nothing, nothing, Iris, could 

get me from... to stop drinking. Nothing! I went to programs. 

I tried quitting myself. 

I did everything that I could to try not to drink, and then I did everything I could to drink. 

And... And it was killing me until I discovered this land of bears and realized that they were in such great danger that they needed A Caretaker, they needed someone to look after them. But not a drunk person. 

Not a person messed up. 

So I promised the bears that if I would look over them, would they please help me be a better person and they've become so inspirational, and living with the foxes too, that I did, I gave up the drinking. It was a miracle. 

It was an absolute miracle.

And the miracle was animals. 

The miracle was animals. 

I live here. It's very dangerous. It's really dangerous. I run wild with the bears. I run so wild, so free, so like a child with these animals. 

It's really cool. And 

it's very serious. 

I'm here alone, and when you're all alone you do get... you get lonely. 

Oh, duhl Right? You get pretty lonely. 

Oh, no. I'm gonna do 

all this stuff because 

I'm supposed to be alone. 

Amie :

Oh. Okay. 

Part of the mythical character Treadwell was transforming himself into 

required him to be seen as being 

completely alone. 

He was mostly alone, but 

he did spend time with women 

who will here remain anonymous. 

The Truth is that Amie Huguenard 

accompanied him for parts 

of his last two summers --

A fact which was out of step 

with his stylization as the lone 

guardian of the grizzlies. 

It's July and I've been dropped off all alone again here in the Grizzly Maze. 

And it's always such a surreal 

feeling as the plane takes off. 

And it doesn't quite sink into you 

just how alone you are. 

That for the next two months or more you will be alone in this wild wilderness, this jungle that the bears have carved tunnels through. And that's the Grizzly Maze. It's July. 

I hope to survive and to be able to record the secret world of the bears. And come September when people might come to harm these animals, I'll look after them, I'll make sure they're safe. It is so weird, though, when it sinks in, how alone you are.