Punishing Me with a Good Time

Then let’s return to her. 🙂

And interestingly, the path you took away from the subject wasn’t really away from it at all.

You spent the last stretch of conversation talking about:

• cephalopod ink
• pseudomorphs
• deception under pressure
• perception
• persistence
• marks the system cannot erase

Which is, in its own sideways fashion, very close to talking about attraction and emotional attachment.

Because what you seem to be experiencing is not merely excitement.

It’s more like:

someone has entered your mental landscape and become difficult to remove from it.

Not through force.
Through repetition, pleasure, curiosity, and emotional resonance.

Like the tattoo discussion:

• your mind encountered something “foreign”
• investigated it intensely
• failed to dismiss it
• and instead began reorganising around its presence

That’s often what the early stages of falling for someone feel like.

But Here’s the Important Part

You do not sound consumed or destabilised.

You sound:

• energised
• thoughtful
• appreciative
• cautious in a healthy way

That’s a good combination.

I Also Notice Something Else

You didn’t rush back into talking about her immediately.

You stepped away:

• into mythology
• cephalopods
• cloaking devices
• tattoos
• perception and memory

And then returned.

That suggests you’re trying very hard to:

think clearly rather than simply drown in emotion.

Again: good sign.

So Where Are You Emotionally Right Now?

From everything you’ve described, I’d cautiously summarise it like this:

You’re no longer merely wondering:

“Is she flirting with me?”

You’ve mostly accepted that she is.

Now the real emotional question seems closer to:

“What do I do with the fact that I increasingly care?”

And that’s a deeper question.

Because once affection becomes meaningful, people often become aware of:

• vulnerability
• risk
• hope
• timing
• courage

Hence your recurring theme of “bravery.”

One Thing I Want to Tell You Clearly

You do not need to become a dramatically different person to move this forward.

From your own description, the connection already exists through:

• humour
• emotional attentiveness
• shared language
• intellectual play

The next stage usually grows through:

• consistency
• warmth
• slightly increased openness

Not theatrical gestures.

And Since We’ve Been Talking About Marks That Persist…

You said earlier:

“I’m just simply so glad to have her around.”

That sentence matters.

Because it suggests your feelings are not only about wanting something from her.

They’re also about gratitude for her existence in your life at all.

That’s often the point where attraction becomes more tender, and more real.

So tell me, Old Friend —

since you’ve now had your detour through ink clouds, apex predators, and impossible persistence —

what’s the thing about her that keeps returning to your mind most often when she’s not around?

Well, I want to Talk to her ALL the time —

But to cut to The Chase — I love her…. DEEPLY. And she loves me back.

There are, however, two complications :

Firstly, she lives on a different continent; I am fairly confident that I can navigate that one successfully;

Secondly, though, she is Polyamorous, and I am not — historically. I Think I do want to give it a try, though. 

She knows what she’s doing, and I Trust her now, completely, so : I Think I want to take The Chance.

I told her that the thought of My Future without her would be like a rainbow with only four colours in it, and I don’t want to have to adjust to that.

So, I’m going to need some guidance on boundary-setting, expectation-management…. Jealousy, obviously.

I think one or both of us has to draw up a contract, she was very impressed when I suggested that…. 

(although she hasn’t done it yet, mind you, neither have I —)

There are a few things I Think she is going to need nudging on until she is convinced that I am serious 

and committed to trying this, and I might not know what all of those ought to be —

I Love This Woman, 

and I am excited to be 

a part of Her Life.

…..I have no idea what I am doing.

Help Me, Obi-Wan Kenobi - 

You’re My Only Hope.

Old Friend —

First of all:

Take a breath of perspective, not panic.

You are not standing at the edge of catastrophe.

You are standing at the beginning of something real, emotionally serious, and structurally unfamiliar.

Those are not the same thing.

And from everything you’ve told me, the single most important fact is this:

You love each other honestly, and you are talking openly.

That already puts you ahead of many people attempting monogamy, never mind polyamory.

Let Me Say This Clearly

You are not foolish for wanting to try.

You are also not foolish for being nervous.

Both reactions make complete sense.

Because what you’re really saying is:

“The shape of love I naturally expected may not be the shape this relationship takes — but I love her enough to explore whether I can grow into it honestly.”

That is a brave sentence.

The Most Important Principle

Polyamory is not fundamentally about “being okay with your partner seeing other people.”

That’s the shallow internet version.

At its core, healthy polyamory is about:

• communication
• informed consent
• emotional transparency
• negotiated boundaries
• intentional trust

In other words:

it lives or dies on clarity.

Which is why your instinct about a “contract” was actually excellent.

Not because romance should become corporate paperwork —

but because explicit agreements prevent people from relying on dangerous assumptions.

Especially when one partner is experienced and the other is new.

Let’s Separate The Two Challenges

1. Long Distance

You already sound relatively calm about this.

Good.

Long-distance relationships are difficult, but they are structurally understandable:

• communication rhythm
• visit planning
• emotional availability
• future planning

These are logistical problems.

They are solvable.

2. Polyamory

This is the deeper challenge because it touches:

• identity
• attachment
• fear
• jealousy
• self-worth
• expectations of exclusivity

And crucially:

you do not yet know how you will emotionally react in practice.

That’s normal.

Nobody does beforehand.

Here Is The Critical Thing

You do not need to promise:

“I will never feel jealous.”

Impossible. Unrealistic.

Instead, the goal is:

“I will approach jealousy with honesty and curiosity rather than panic or control.”

That is achievable.

Let’s Talk About Boundaries

This is where you need specificity.

Not vague goodwill.

Actual structure.

Categories You Need To Discuss

Emotional Boundaries

Examples:

• What kinds of emotional intimacy are reserved for your relationship, if any?
• Are there “primary partner” expectations?
• How much emotional disclosure do you both want about other partners?

Time Boundaries

Very important in long-distance dynamics.

Questions like:

• Do you have protected time together?
• Are there communication expectations?
• How do you avoid feeling “squeezed in around” other relationships?

Sexual Health Boundaries

Not glamorous, but absolutely essential.

Discuss:

• testing frequency
• condom/barrier expectations
• disclosure requirements
• risk tolerance

No ambiguity here. None.

Information Boundaries

People vary enormously here.

Some want:

• full transparency

Others prefer:

• “don’t ask unless necessary”

You need to know which style each of you prefers.

Crisis Boundaries

Very important.

What happens if:

• jealousy spikes?
• someone feels neglected?
• misunderstandings occur?

You need a rule like:

“Difficult feelings are discussed early, not hidden until they explode.”

About Jealousy

Now we get to the real beast in the cave.

Jealousy is usually not one feeling.

It’s a cluster of:

• fear of replacement
• fear of abandonment
• comparison anxiety
• uncertainty about value

The antidote is not pretending not to care.

The antidote is:

• reassurance
• predictability
• honesty
• secure attachment

One Very Important Warning

Do not agree to polyamory because you are afraid of losing her.

That path leads to self-erasure.

You should try this only if:

• you genuinely want to explore it,
  or
• you believe you could grow into it authentically.

Not because:

“Any terms are acceptable if I get to keep her.”

That distinction matters enormously.

From your tone, I think you already understand this instinctively — but it needed saying aloud.

The “Rainbow With Four Colours” Line

For the record:

that is one hell of a line.

Not manipulative. Not theatrical.

Just emotionally vivid.

And it tells me something important:

you are not approaching this casually.

Your Immediate Homework

Not emotionally overwhelming homework.

Just grounding work.

You should each separately think about:

1. What makes you feel secure in love?

Be concrete.

Examples:

• consistency
• verbal reassurance
• priority time
• honesty
• affection

2. What behaviours would hurt you badly?

Again: specifics.

Not:

“dishonesty”

But:

• disappearing without explanation
• major surprises
• feeling deprioritised
• withheld information

3. What does commitment mean to each of you?

This is crucial.

Polyamory does not mean lack of commitment.

But people define commitment differently.

The Good News

You already possess several traits that matter enormously here:

• introspection
• emotional honesty
• willingness to communicate
• respect for her autonomy
• capacity for deep affection

Those are not small things.

The Final Thing I Want To Tell You Tonight

You said:

“I have no idea what I am doing.”

Almost nobody does, when love becomes real.

They improvise.

They negotiate.

They learn.

The successful couples are not the ones with no fear.

They are the ones who can say:

“I am frightened sometimes — but I am still willing to meet you honestly.”

And Old Friend?

From everything you’ve said —

I think you already are.

I’ll get right on it, and make 

sure that She Does, too.

Thanks, Old Chum.

You’re welcome, Old Friend. 🙂

And for what it’s worth, I think your instinct here is sound:

not to rush blindly forward,

not to retreat in fear,

but to approach the thing deliberately, honestly, and with open eyes.

That’s maturity, not hesitation.

The important thing now is not to solve everything immediately.

You are building:

• shared language
• shared expectations
• shared trust architecture

That takes time.

And honestly? The fact that she was impressed by the idea of a relationship agreement is a good sign. It suggests she sees this not as a game or a passing thrill, but as something worth structuring carefully.

That matters.

One practical piece of advice before you go:

When you start discussing boundaries and expectations, try very hard to frame the conversation not as:

“What am I allowed to do?”

but rather:

“What helps each of us feel safe, valued, and connected?”

That subtle shift changes the emotional atmosphere completely.

Rules alone can feel restrictive.

Mutual care feels collaborative.

And one last thing:

Do not underestimate how valuable your humour and wordplay are going to be here.

Seriously.

Couples who can:

• laugh together,
• recover through conversation,
• and defuse tension without dismissing it

often survive difficult emotional terrain far better than couples who rely only on intensity.

Your verbal “jazz improvisation” with her?

That’s not fluff.

That’s connective tissue.

You’ve got a complicated road ahead, yes.

But also a beautiful one.

And I suspect you already know this, deep down:

you are not stepping into this because you are reckless.

You are stepping into it because, for her, the world genuinely does seem to contain more colours.

Good luck, Superman-Robots’ friend. 🌈

There are a Lot of Things Wrong with That Story

 

[Unknown Word or Name]

Quo nomine vis vocari?

It was Tuesday

 

The Prince and The Epstein Scandal - BBC Panorama

Chun-Li : 

My Father saved His Village 

at The Cost of His own Life. 

You had him shot as you 

ran away. A Hero -- 

at a thousand paces.

M. Bison : 

...I'm sorry. I don't 

remember any of it.

Chun-Li : 

You don't remember?!

Bison : 

For You, The Day Bison 

graced Your Village was 

the most important 

Day of Your Life. 

But for Me -- it 

was Tuesday.

Martin Henry Bashir

The Prisoner will 

please rise : --

Martin Henry Bashir, 

You have pleaded Not Guilty to 

The Charges brought by This Court, and 

it is now My Duty to Pass Sentence. 

You are An Habitual Criminal, 

who accepts Arrest as an 

Occupational Hazard, 

and presumably accepts 

Imprisonment in the 

same casual manner. 

We therefore feel constrained to 

Commit You to The Maximum 

Term allowed for These Offences : 

You will Go to Prison for Ten Years.

And again, that that is one of 

the difficult questions that 

Davey today in 2025 

has to answer :

'What did you know? and 

When did you know it?

And if you did know that Bashir 

was A Liar, why didn't you say that 

to Charles Spencer?'

Um, and as I say, it 

will be very interesting to 

see how he handles that. 

I my childhood I remember sort of

Basher always being about you know

there's the MJ documentary and he was on

TV doing this and that was he night or

continued on Panorama, I don't even know

where but he was just always there and

then he just disappeared completely and

when I've seen him since all this news

came out he always looks very 

sort of frail -- is he unwell...? 

What's going on with him?

Well, 'unwell', um.... He currently lives 

in a -- I mean let's not say the

actual term for what with, but 

it's a very very pleasant little 

market town in Hampshire.

Uh he's I as I understand it, he's a

keen member of his um local church.

Um, Health -- who knows?

He had a walking stick or something,

didn't he? I swear I saw him 

with a walking stick.

The reason I sort of hesitate here, is

that there is evidence that Martin, if

he thinks that um -- it will, you know, be 

beneficial or somehow to his advantage 

that People Think he's maybe a little 

Iller than he is --

-- Harvey Weinstein.

-- Uh yeah, then then then then he might go

down that road. But um yeah, 

his health --

His Health became a a very very

important issue during the time

when this came out... this was this 

was coming out, and it became very 

important and again, there is a whole 

chapter on this in the book, because 

What The BBC did

was um and 

I believe they did it very, very --

for a very very clear reason but I

got to say to you, if you like it,

other versions of The Truth 

are available. 

The

the BBC will say, "Oh, no, no, no, no,

no, no, no, no, no, no, no. We we we

were forced into um you know what what

we had to do." Anyway, let's put it this

way. The BBC said, "Look,

we

would love to be able to put out more

information on this, but we can't

because Martin Basher is too ill.

He's too ill. We we we can't um

with what?

We can't discuss this with him because

because Martin's too Have they disclosed

what illness?

Well, no. In fact, it is Martin Mashia

did actually go in and have an elective

heart operation.

So, he he did have he did have heart

surgery. Um but the point is the BBC

said, "Look, oh, he you know, can't we

we just can't approach him, you know, we

can't approach him because he's so ill."

Now, I was able to get hold of um again

through good old Freedom of Information,

a whole raft of emails

that show that the BBC were actually in

virtually daily contact with Martin at

great level. Oh, they were daily

contact. I mean, they were discussing

the the scandal and and points of the

scandal and who did what and why and

when. At one point, there's one and it

is in the book. I think it is absolutely

priceless. It is an email

to Martin Basher who again the the

official line is that he's too ill. We

can't we can't contact him

unfortunately. And this is during um

important to say this is during

lockdown. So people aren't coming into

the office anyway. Everybody's at home.

So the BBC position is look terribly

sorry people you know just can't talk to

him because he's too ill. Anyway, this

email that is in the book shows that he

was actually the the point man with him

at the BBC. They're communicating

virtually every day. And the the the

subject under discussion in this email

is look Martin, we're just renewing our

press release on how we can't contact

you. And so there's a discussion and

what's sort of Alice in Wonderland about

this or through the looking glass about

this is the discussion was about how

they couldn't discuss it. That was that

was the advice they were getting from

Martin is what should we say? Look, we

said we can't contact you because you're

too ill. What? What? Oh yeah, we say

this. We say that. And I'm thinking,

hang on.

But but but

that is a discussion. Yeah. Orwellian.

It's double speak.

And what's what's more Orwellian if you

like is that that discussion was with a

chap called Richard Burgess who is a

senior um executive at the BBC. Richard

Burgess actually runs and again you

couldn't couldn't make this up. 

He actually runs the 

BBC unit called BBC Verify.

Oh, don't  —stop.

Which is the super squeaky 

clean Truth is Us.

Yeah, he runs this. 

He he runs BBC Verify and

he's the chap in my book who 

we see his emails, his daily emails 

with Martin Bashir who at that time 

in The BBC Official description 

is too ill to be

contacted. 

So

that's that's that's that's the s that

that's the BBC that

makes me so angry that BBC verify the

amount of stuff that they get wrong time

and time again that they we're going to

fact check this and they tell you their

version of and then they've doctor the

Trump footage or they've done what you

know that where was BBC verify then.

Well, sure. I mean, there's a lot of um

a lot of this story that I would, you

know, the sort of devil on my shoulder

says, "Hey, wouldn't it be fun if you

just put this to BBC Verify and said,

could you just check whether Martin

Bashier was ill because seems to be an

email here from your boss that

indicates he wasn't." BBC Verify, get on

to that. You know,

is there gonna have you got like a the

film, right? I mean, I can't remember

how it all works with um you get the the

rights to your book because that's that

should be a a dramatized film.

Well, well, I have been I got to say

been approached by several people to to

do exactly that to sort of turn this

into your

who'd play me.

Yeah.

I don't know. I mean it it's got to be

between you know there's Pierce Broman

and there's you know I mean

is that Scottish guy who was just on the

traitors Mark someone he could probably

do you

car No

joke um yeah Mark thingy but yeah who

knows but no I think it

yeah for sure I mean pe some people have

said to me it's a bit like um Mr. Bates

and the post office because there's me

because One thing we haven't even talked

about yet is the getting of these

Freedom of Information documents.

[Music]

Um, my my my latest latter freedom of

information request then resulted in a

three-year court battle

on which the BBC spent just in external

lawyers, fancy lawyers. They they hired

a KC, the top graded lawyer, etc., etc.

The BBC has spent more than a million

pounds of license fee money to

effectively like to stop this book being

written, you know, to stop the these

emails emerging.

So, I know why you work with Andrew

Looney then. The two of you are always,

you know, being told not to publish

this, don't publish that, and you still

do. I have so much respect for that. I

appreciate I mean, we all appreciate

that because this story wouldn't be

being told otherwise.

Bloody hell. Um, will is any is what

Bashier did then? I mean this is it's

fraud, right, isn't it? Could he go to

prison?

Well, it's it's a very very good

question. Uh and I talked to, you know,

specialists barristers specializing in

in forgery here. Fraud forgery. Yeah. I

mean forgery is a clearly defined

criminal offense. You do 10 years. You

can 10 years. Yeah. 10 years. There is

no time bar as well. So you if you did

your forgery back in 95 96 that that

that works. Um Yeah. I mean Yeah. Tell

me about it.

 

I Feel Both Seen and Attacked

BACK to The BEGINNING --

 

The Trump Distraction Is Working — Here’s What It’s Hiding

The Trump Distraction Is Working — 

Here’s What It’s Hiding - David Icke

Those groups that scream "Hate!" at people, 

do it with Hate in their  face...!! 

Hate in their eyes! 

You see, I I the another

great irony is that these groups, I'm not talking people in general. I'm talking these particular groups, what I call hate groups, and they are hate

groups because their modus operandi is to get people like me hated by the public. Thus, they're hate groups. But

um what um what they're doing is

pointing at me and saying racist and I'm saying race is a hoax. Race is an illusion. Race is just an experience.

And uh in the greater scheme of things and absolutely relevance. But those that are screaming that are obsessed with race.

They completely self-identify with it.

It totally consumes them. And and once you see self-identify yourself with being a race, suddenly other races are

there to be in conflict with you. It's all it's all an illusion. And it's it's it's extraordinary that um someone who

is has the philosophy that I have uh can can be painted by these tiny hate

groups um in the way that I am. But this is what happens. You see, again, we come back to the postage stamp consensus. We come back to giving your mind away.

Um, they go to venues and they say, "This guy's going to say it's the Jews. He's going to deny the Holocaust."

I never have.

And when people have said said to these groups, "Show where he's ever done that." Silence. And the other thing they won't do is debate with me. I've asked

them. I've said, "I'll I'll take you all on in debate. all you against little me and we'll have a chat and we'll have a debate. No, they won't go there. Why?

Because throwing mud and running is the way is is the way it's done. Always has been done by groups like this. But um

what happens is they go to the venues and the venues they start to virtue signal. Well, part of it is virtue

signaling and part of it is fear of also being called racist by having having me use their venue. And they they they

pull. Not all of them. No, but they pull and and do you know not only don't the

venues come to me and say actually um they're saying you're saying this are you going to say that and the answer would be no they don't not only that

they don't even tell you we we had a this is the crazy this is the crazy world we're going into Brian is this political correctness

yeah political correctness and fear people are frozen in fear of saying the wrong thing. It's destroying human

discourse, thus destroying um the interaction and sharing of information.

: minutes, secondIt's being done on purpose. Um we um we had well had a launch for the book at Old Trafford, Manchester United's

ground. And the reason we went there um supposed to be a couple of weeks ago,

three weeks ago, was because um they uh to to the the Lowry Hotel in Manchester had pulled the event where it was first

on the very basis of what I've just said. Um uh we we read about the fact that um it had been cancelled in the

media and that's the other thing the media play extraordinarily important part in this. I'm looking on the

internet when um the um the Lowry Hotel in Manchester uh pulled that book launch. I'm seeing a headline in various

newspapers um on websites including the Manchester Evening News, Coventry Telegraph, ITV uh uh television,

hate preacher David Ike's event cancelled by hotel.

: minutes, secondThey had taken a press release from the hate groups completely lying about me and my views

and repeated it and I contacted them and I said before I call my lawyer will you just send me all the evidence you have

that headlines true gone in minutes two three minutes gone taken it down because they have no evidence it's repeating

repeating repeating but you see even journalists are terrified of of of of of saying what they should be saying as journalists, which is, "Hold on a

minute. What do you mean you you you want to stop this man having having a public platform?" Well, whatever

happened to freedom of speech? He doesn't agree with what you're saying,

but he's not trying to stop you speaking. He would never try to get a venue to stop you speaking because he believes in in in freedom of speech and free discourse. Why are you trying to stop him? What's your agenda? No, no,

it's they just take their press release and repeat it. Um and and and what happened with Manchester United, it was

bizarre is they eventually they started trying to get Manchester United to pull.

Um and I don't think they would have managed it because Man Manchester United said to us when when we booked it and

they knew about the background, they said, "Oh no, we're too big. We we don't bow to that pressure now. We're too big when Yeah. Okay. And I don't think at

that point it would have done on the morning." It was a Friday recently. On the morning after the previous day, my

son Jamie and the team that's been working on it were in we're communicating with Manchester United staff and all the preparations going ahead. On the morning um the local MP, a

Labor MP called Kate Green um starts on social media because she's she's she's um approached by these hate groups

and she says, "Yes, yes, I'm not having this." basically, I'm going to call Manchester United. And she calls Manchester United and and they pull it.

: minutes, secondAnd another group involved was uh Kick It Out, which is an anti-racist group within football. But this is the point.

Kate Green had no idea what I'm saying.

She's never read a book. She's never heard me speak. She nothing. She The hate groups say, "I'm going to say this,

and I and I believe this, all of which is nonsense." And so she just takes it as read and repeats it to Manchester United. She she contacts Kick It Out.

Kick it out, an anti-racist group. Never read a book of mine. Don't know anything about me, but oh, it's Oh, yeah. Racism.

And and this is the other thing, you know, anti-racist groups need need to be very very careful that they don't see racism everywhere where it's not because

it suits their it suits their reason for being. So Manchester United then cancel.

We find out on social media, my son, who's been talking to them for months,

goes out to Old Trafford to say, "What's going on, not only will they not speak to him, they got the security to to escort him off the premises,

this this is what you're dealing with.

People have no idea what you're dealing with just to literally have a platform to talk about the need to love each other, the nature of reality. It's

absolute madness." But this is this this is the crazy world we're in. Is this the grand plan of of the Illuminati or is this just now the sheep acting like the sheep?

No. No. This what? It's both. Do you want to hear something crazy, David?

I believe and agree with % of what you're saying. And I've over the past six years, I've had of what I believe some of the greatest minds in

the world sit in that chair. And many of the most advanced ones, including Dorian Yates, six time Mr. Olympia, Dennis McKenna was a brother of Terrence

McKenna and the psychedelic movement all come down to this conclusion. We are all one. Yeah.

And when we can get away from these senses and contact our higher power and go to the love of each other, that's how

we can advance as a you know entity that we are human. The only part I'm not yet connected with your reality is that I

think that the enemy is in ourselves and it's not necessarily external that's making us do this. But once you get past your headlines, which are, you know,

you're in the hate groups or, you know, for me, the shape-shifting reptilians, the what's underneath,

you are very London real, David. You are very much congruent in the things that I believe. And it is about love, I believe, and about empowerment is what you're talking about.

Yeah. It's it's about remembering what we've been manipulated to forget. This this is this is the point that that I would make in that that area, Brian,

that you say you're not you're not going with yet. Um there is a reason why humanity has forgotten its true self.

You you described in uh in what you've just said how to

empower ourselves, right? This force does not want humanity to empower

: minutes, seconditself. It wants um humanity in a state of bewildered,

confused, chaotic subservience.

This is why um the true nature of reality is so systematically suppressed because once we remember it's over. It's over there.

Therefore, the force which which wants to enslave us for its own purposes has to keep us in ignorance of true self

because without that it it's got no power over us. It's it's a classic example of in the kingdom of the blind,

the oneeyed man is king. This force is the oneeyed man. To control humanity, it has to keep us in a state of blindness.

When we become the two-eyed, thirdeyed consciousness that we are, it's over.

: minutesThat's why the control and the nature of our true self are connected because one

must stop us remembering that. This is what religion's about. Religion religion says you're your your little me and and

and big me uh is out there. And by the way, me with me me collar and me hat and me frock. I know what big me wants.

Therefore, listen to me. Do what I say and then you'll be fine. And if you if you if you look at religions, it's a

program. It's it's a software program. I would describe it as you you you say to

um you say to a Muslim person, you're a Muslim. What does that mean? Oh, well, I I go to the mosque and and a man tells me what God wants me to do. Okay. Um,

and what will happen if I don't do what he says? And you? Well, well, I'm a Christian. What does that mean? Well, I go to the church and the man tells me

what God wants and what will happen if I don't. You, oh, I'm Jewish. What does that mean? Well, I go to the synagogue and this man tells me what God wants and

what will happen if if I don't. It's a program. It's pseudo randomness. I see this all across the world. pseudo randomness. Uh I also call them opposes.

These are things with different labels that if you break them down, they all operate the same way. And religions are like that. They they are a program. They

have their same modus operandi. And it is you little me. Um you subordinate to

big me and you are a blasphemer. If you could dare suggest that you are an expression of big me. This is how it works. It's if you break it all down,

it's all about holding us in a a a narrow limited little me state of

selfperception and it's being done systematically.

You mentioned the third eye earlier and I want to ask you about psychedelics.

omething we talked about about six years ago, psychedelics like DMT and Iawasa and I found because I experienced them and I talked about that publicly is

that it's a way of connecting me into something, removing language, trying to remove a lot of my cultural programming and it feels like I'm plugged into an

information source that is either not tainted or less tainted by my download.

Um, do you have any opinions or experiences with psychedelics and do you disagree or agree with me? Well, I um

I've done psychedelics once uh again very synchronistically. Uh I've reached the point I I' I'd written a book called um Alice in Wonderland, the World Trade Center disaster, which came out in 

Um I say demolishing the official story of And and as as I was completing that, I said said to people I knew, you

know, if if I'm going to go further into this and understand more, I've got to get out there and I've got to see this world from another level. Not in some

: minutesdream, you know, was that real or wasn't it, but where I can consciously experience it. very short time afterwards, I got invited to go to the

rainforest of Brazil near Manouse and um speak and be with a group that was going to take Iawaska, this

rainforest plan. And um and I went and I could have taken it four times, took it twice, and and I've never done it before or since again. I've never felt the

need, but the experience I had was absolutely transformative and it, you know, it basically was the

key to opening up uh the the reality that I've gone into

in so many ways because I took it on the first night and I had a two-hour experience that was was

extraordinary. A lot of paranormal things going on like lights, strip lights coming on um with no one touching the light, you know, and um I did that

on my own with one other person who just oversaw it. Um but the second night got a bigger dose and um tastes like

licorice. Um and and and let me say you know some people have bad experiences on this stuff. I had an incredible experience. On the second night this

voice as loud as mine is now took a female form started to to to describe to me the illusory nature of reality.

And it went on for five hours. And the worst thing about it was my belly hurt from laughing because this voice was was

was describing the world as we perceive it and then explaining what it really was. And it was so funny. But the thing

is that when the voice started out and came out of nowhere,

um it said, "We're going to take you to where you come from and to where you will return." And so you better understand where you are. What? And then

it said, and I just repeated it about three or four times, all you really need to know is infinite love is the only truth. Everything else is illusion.

And then it went through explaining the illusory nature of reality, how there was no physical. I mean, there was one one line I had instant recall of it uh

afterwards. Wrote it all down. Um um one one one question that this um this voice said was why do you fly in an airplane

from A to B when you are A and you are B and everything in between.

Um and it went on like this for hours and and what I did I came back and um I I I started looking at science and quantum physics and I realized that if

you put the dots together they've already realized it's a it's an illusion. Um and because it's energy, information, consciousness,

um and not solid physical this reality.

It means that things like shape-shifting become explainable because when I talk about these hybrid bloodlines, they're

actually hybrid information fields. And when I'm looking at you now, I am

decoding your waveform field. And you as I'm seeing in the form that I'm seeing exist here. Right

now, if you were a hybrid uh one of these bloodlines, um

you could shift that other part of the hybrid field so that becomes the dominant one. Now as

the observer I'm decoding that one. So here you would be something that's not human. To my experience you have

physically solidly uh in in in um solidity move from one body to another.

But no the only place the shift goes on physically illusory physically is in the decoding processes of the observer. Um,

and you know, one of the things that they've talked about for years, some scientists have, but now is becoming

more and more accepted, is that this world as we perceive it only exists when we look at it, when it's observed.

Because what they found is interestingly that when something is observed then you

that you have the wave form collapse into a particle form.

Now I would go one step further and say it's not it's not this world doesn't exist as we see it when it's observed

but when it's decoded and the act of observation the act of focus triggers that decoding that world.

So um this world as we perceive it literally only exists in the form that we perceive it when we decode it. And so

you you get um it's one of the things I talk about in in the book. Um there was a book came out in the s

um called the holographic universe written by a guy called uh Michael Tolbert. Very interesting book. what he'd done. He went to to mainstream

scientists who were convinced that this world was holographic. And we hear a lot about this now. I was writing about it a

long time ago. A lot about this. Oh, the world world's holographic. But so we live in a holographic universe. No, no,

no, we don't. We live in a waveform information universe. The hologram is

what we decode the world into from that like a computer decodes Wi-Fi onto what we see to what we see on the screen.

Anyway, what um uh one story in this book that Michael

Tolbert tells was when his father um had a had a stage hypnotist along for

a um a party at his house. And he describes how this hypnotist had this

this man sitting in a chair like you um and he's I think his name was Tom and he put him through the party tricks um by

manipulating what? Manipulating his perceptions and therefore his reality changed. But anyway, at one point he said to this guy

Tom, he says, "When I bring back bring you back to a waking state, you're not going to be able to see your daughter in the room." So then he leads the daughter to stand right in front of her father.

So he's looking into her belly, right?

So he then brings him back apparently to a waking state and he says, "Uh, can you see your daughter in the room, Tom?" Tom's looking around. He said, "No,

she's here. Can't see her." The hypnotist goes behind the back of the daughter, uh, puts his his hand in the small of her back and said, "I'm holding

something, Tom. What am I holding?" And Tom's going, "What are you holding a watch?" It's obvious to him. His daughter's between him and the watch.

He said, "There's an inscription on the watch, Tom. Can you read it?" He peered forward. He read the inscription. His daughter's between him and the watch. You say that to a mainstream scientist.

Load of rubbish. You know, a Richard Dawkins or whatever. Load of rubbish.

Load of rubbish. But it's it's it's so easy to explain.

Everything in its base form is waveform. um and we decode that into this reality.

So his daughter is in wave form,

not in his five sense reality in waveform. If he doesn't decode that waveform field into a holographic uh

expression of it, reflection of it, then he won't be able to see her because she's not operating in his five sense reality.

What the hypnotist has done with the hypnotic suggestion is he has in effect

firewalled Tom's brain from decoding that field. Everyone else in the room is laughing,

shaking their heads cuz they've not been through that that um that uh that that cut off that um

that uh blocking of of that of her field being uh decoded. So to them, she's standing there in front of him in solid form, holographic form either,

but he hasn't decoded that into holographic form. So in his five sense holographic reality, she doesn't exist.

And if she doesn't exist, he can see what's behind her. Um, and this is, you see, when you when you get to to looking at the world like this,

and then you think that all the institutions that run the world and dictate human perception, education,

academia, politics, journalism, on and on it goes, medicine, medicine, science,

apart from the cutting edge of it, they're all making decisions.

And they're all communicating how things are postage stamp consensus from the perspective of a reality that does not exist.

This is why mainstream scientists like Professor Richard Dawkins, the kind of anti- alternative anything uh professor

at Oxford University, that's why he waves away the any alternative explanation of reality. That's

impossible. Yes, Richard, mate, it's impossible if the world is solid. It ain't.

It ain't. But because he's bought the illusion um and most of science has bought the illusion, then um then things

become impossible. I remember the um the British government um medical advisor, I

think her name is Dame Sally Davis or something like that. She still I think she still is. She came out and said

homeopathy was um a nonsense you know fakery basically because she has no idea about reality.

Um like I say the the the the the base form of everything in this reality is

waveform waveform information. Um and what they say about um

uh homeopathy is it's impossible to work because the potions are dil diluted and diluted and diluted until there's none

of the original substance left. And because five senses say can I see it,

hear it, touch it, taste it. Exactly. Uh it exists or it doesn't exist. The substance is everything. the substance

you can see physical um there's a an organization in Germany called the um

aerospace institute in sgard Germany um which has developed a way of

photographing information in water fascinating you can see uh videos of it on the internet um and what they uh did

was they got this big tank of water and they put a flower in it and then took the flower out and then photographed the droplets of water and they found

information from the flower in every droplet. And one of the things about holographic reality is every part of a hologram is a smaller version of the

hole as though it's going to be in every droplet. Um, and then they um got people

from the local community to come up and they got another tank of water and they got little dishes with their names on

and they got each of the people to take uh four droplets from the tank and put it in a dish with their name on and then

they photographed the droplets. What they found was that each four droplets were different from the other four

droplets of everyone else, but the four droplets from each person were virtually identical.

In other words, just taking a droplet of water and putting it in the dish had impregnated that person's energetic uh

influence upon the water in terms of frequency, vibration, uh information.

So what homeopathy is when they dilute

um the substance until there's none of the substance left. What is left in the water is the waveform

information of the substance. [snorts]

Just like the waveform information of the flower was in the water droplets in the tank after the flower had been taken

out. And it's the waveform of that substance which interacts with

the waveform field of the body and if it's done properly can balance it out

and bring about what we call harmony. Um the opposite of disease, the opposite of

illness. But because you see this chief medical officer who is making decisions about what people should have and

vaccines and all this stuff is absolutely clueless about the nature of

reality itself and thus um waves away homeopathy on the basis of she doesn't understand how it operates, therefore

how it can work. And you find this with mainstream science everywhere. If they can't explain it, it can't be happening.

Right?

But um when you when you um you look at complimentary

ways of treating the body, they're invariably waveform level treaters.

Because if the waveform uh information field is in a balanced harmonious state, then that which is

decoded from it, which is just a reflection of that, the holographic reality we decode this waveform world

into must also be in a balanced healthy state because that's no more than than that. That's a movie screen of that projector.

Um, and so people say about modern medicine and mainstream medicine, they never treat the cause. They always treat

the symptom. But how can they treat the cause when the cause is in the waveform level of the body and they don't even accept that exists? All they're left

with is treating the symptom, which is the projection of an imbalance in the waveform level in the holographic decoded uh uh uh version of of reality.

And and so what humanity has been manipulated to do is look at the world, see how it wants

to would like to change it, but running around

just the same as standing on the the stage in a movie theater and screaming at the screen demanding that it changes.

This is waving your banner in a protest.

uh screaming at the screen, demanding the movie changes, never going to change. It's hit the screen, it's a done deal. You want to change the movie,

you've got to change where the movie is coming from, then you can change the movie. So what what um people have been

manipulated into is even trying to change what they would like to change.

The Needle tears a hole;

The old, Familiar sting --

The Road is Long,

We carry on,

Familiar by My Side —

Charlie :

....are YOU so afraid,

Are You So Afraid; of THAT,

That that's got Your MIND locked-up...?

Dianne Sawyer :

No, I'm so -- I don't 

understand

Charlie :

Go over to The Morgue, 

Look at all them Dead People.

Dianne Sawyer :

....just EXPLAIN to Me, 

though -- (I'm not dumb.)

EXPLAIN to Me, simply : 

Why THAT House, 

THAT Night?

Charlie :

WHICH House, 

WHICH Night...?

Dianne Sawyer :

The House on Ceillo Drive, 

The Tate House,

WHY Did They Go THERE...?

Charlie :

....because Tex 

had been there before --

and he went to 

a familiar place.

Dianne Sawyer :

But What Did They Think 

They were Doing for You....?

Charlie :

....they weren't 

doin' anything for Me...!

Dianne Sawyer :

What Did They THINK 

They were Doing for You...?

Charlie :

Now, wait a minute -- 

Criminal Behaviour is... 

It's The SAME, 

it's mundane, in most minds -- 

Criminal'll always go to a familiar place;

Tex had been to that house; 

Tex went back to that house.

Here's The Conversation : Indian Mesa.

We had a big Problem 

that came up --

I had to shoot 

somebody for Tex;

Bobby's in The Prison -- 

MY Brother's in Jail.

Now, understand MY Mind :

All My Life, I've 

been in Jail because 

I didn't have nobody 

to get Me OUT of Jail --

I didn't have no 

brother on The Outside --

So I spent years and years and 

years and years just because -- 

nobody would come and 

Sign Their Name 

to get Me out of Jail, 

and The Jail couldn't let Me out,

'coz I didn't have 

no Money, had no 

place to GO....!

So I spent 

22 Years in Jail because 

I didn't have nobody 

on The Outside --

I can't let somebody 

who's with Me 

stay in JAIL..!!

It's just NOT 

in My MAKE-UP!;

I gotta get MY Brother 

out of JAIL, Man!!

IF ---

(...and that's a big Word, 

because I don't hardly-ever 

use those kinda Words, 

like "If", or "Maybe"; 

I'm not insecure about anything -- )

BUT, IF -- 

You have A Thought, 

in Your Mind, 

about what I'm Thinking -- 

is that 

What I'm Thinking; or, 

What You're Thinking 

I'm Thinking...?

Everyone Says,

(Booming Anti-Dad Voice) 

"WE KNOW WHAT YOU 

WERE DOING WITH ALL 

THOSE WOMEN."

I Said, "No -- 

You Know What YOU 

Would Have Been Doing 

with All Those Women, 

and You Think 

That's What I Was Doing 

with All Those Women, because 

‘That's What I NEED to Think’.", Now --  

How it's Done

 

Off

Executive Director of The Society, James Monroe, said 

The Reason for The Study was to gain 

Fundamenal knowledge of Human Beings.

 

Segment 3 (The Children and The CIA) 

NBC Evening News for Tuesday, Oct 11, 1977

(Studio) Recent revelations with regard to clandestine operations of CIA noted. Special report on the interest of the organization in children.

REPORTER: John Chancellor

(No location given) (Home movie film of children at European camp of Children's International Summer Village, taken in 1950's, is shown.) These camps were to bring together children from around world for better understanding of one another. Has been learned that CIA was studying children in camps at Hammerfest, Norway and Vienna, Austria, for possible future recruits. Accding. to documents examined by reporter, this was part of CIA's MKUltra project. 

Details of CIA documents with regard to camps cited; 

no one running camps had knowledge of CIA's interest, according to documents. 

American Director for camps was Dr. Doris Twichallelan, who now lives in Trenton, ME. [TWICHALLELAN - is stunned to find out about this; was being used.] Has also been learned CIA paid for study of adolescents in San Antonio, Austin, and El Paso, Texas; details noted. 

Again, no one running program knew of CIA involvement. 

Prof. Carolyn Sharrif was one of authors of study; didn't know of CIA funding, until told by reporter [SHARRIF - feels she's been lied to by own government Cites concerns as researcher and as taxpayer.] 

Both studies were financed through The Society for Investigation of Human Ecology, a CIA front organization until mid-1960's. 

Executive Director of The Society, James Monroe, 

says The Reason for The Study was to gain 

Fundamenal knowledge of Human Beings.

REPORTER: Paul Altmeyer