Tuesday, 31 May 2022

Barney








IF THERE are depots on the way to Hell, they must resemble the ambulance entrance to Maryland-Misericordia General Hospital. Over the sirens’ dying wail, wails of the dying, clatter of the dripping gurneys, cries and screams, the columns of manhole steam, dyed red by a great neon EMERGENCY sign, rise like Moses’ own pillar of fire in the darkness and change to cloud in the day. 

Barney came out of the steam, shrugging his powerful shoulders into his jacket, his cropped round head bent forward as he covered the broken pavement in long strides east toward the morning. He was twenty-five minutes late getting off work—the police had brought in a stoned pimp with a gunshot wound who liked to fight women, and the head nurse had asked him to stay. They always asked Barney to stay when they took in a violent patient. 

Clarice Starling peered out at Barney from the deep hood of her jacket and let him get a half-block lead on the other side of the street before she hitched her tote bag on her shoulder and followed. When he passed both the parking lot and the bus stop, she was relieved. Barney would be easier to follow on foot. She wasn’t sure where he lived and she needed to know before he saw her. 

The neighborhood behind the hospital was quiet, blue-collar and mixed racially. A neighborhood where you put a Chapman lock on your car but you don’t have to take the battery in with you at night, and the kids can play outside. After three blocks, Barney waited for a van to clear the crosswalk and turned north onto a street of narrow houses, some with marble steps and neat front gardens. The few empty storefronts were intact with the windows soaped. Stores were beginning to open and a few people were out. Trucks parked overnight on both sides of the street blocked Starling’s view for half a minute and she walked up on Barney before she realized that he had stopped. 

She was directly across the street when she saw him. Maybe he saw her too, she wasn’t sure. He was standing with his hands in his jacket pockets, head forward, looking from under his brows at something moving in the center of the street. 

A dead dove lay in the road, one wing flapped by the breeze of passing cars. The dead bird’s mate paced around and around the body, cocking an eye at it, small head jerking with each step of its pink feet. Round and round, muttering the soft dove mutter. Several cars and a van passed, the surviving bird barely dodging the traffic with short last-minute flights. 

Maybe Barney glanced up at her, Starling couldn’t be positive. She had to keep going or be spotted. When she looked over her shoulder, Barney was squatting in the middle of the road, arm raised to the traffic. She turned the corner out of sight, pulled off her hooded jacket, took a sweater, a baseball cap and a gym bag out of her tote bag, and changed quickly, stuffing her jacket and the tote into the gym bag, and her hair into the cap. 

She fell in with some homeward-bound cleaning women and turned the corner back onto Barney’s street. He had the dead dove in his cupped hands. Its mate flew with whistling wings up to the overhead wires and watched him. Barney laid the dead bird in the grass of a lawn and smoothed down its feathers. He turned his broad face up to the bird on the wire and said something. 

When he continued on his way, The Survivor of the pair dropped down to the grass and continued circling the body, pacing through the grass. Barney didn’t look back. When he climbed the steps of an apartment house a hundred yards farther on and reached for keys, 

Starling sprinted a half-block to catch up before he opened the door. “Barney. Hi.” He turned on the stairs in no great haste and looked down at her. Starling had forgotten that Barney’s eyes were unnaturally far apart. She saw the intelligence in them and felt the little electronic pop of connection. 

She took her cap off and let her hair fall. “I’m Clarice Starling. Remember me? I’m —” 

The G.,” Barney said, expressionless. 

Starling put her palms together and nodded. “Well, yes, I am the G. Barney, I need to talk with you. It’s just informal, I need to ask you some stuff.” 

Barney came down the steps. When he was standing on the sidewalk in front of Starling, she still had to look up at his face. She was not threatened by his size, as a man would be. 

“Would you agree for the record, Officer Starling, that I have not been read My Rights?” His voice was high and rough like the voice of Johnny Weismuller’s Tarzan. 

“Absolutely. I have not Mirandized you. I acknowledge that.” 

“How about saying it into your bag?” 

Starling opened her bag and spoke down into it in a loud voice as though it contained a troll. “I have not Mirandized Barney, he is unaware of His Rights.” 

“There’s some pretty good coffee down the street,” Barney said. “How many hats have you got in that bag?” he asked as they walked. 

“Three,” she said. 

When the van with handicap plates passed by, Starling was aware that the occupants were looking at her, but the afflicted are often horny, as they have every right to be. 

The young male occupants of a car at the next crossing looked at her too, but said nothing because of Barney. Anything extended from the windows would have caught Starling’s instant attention — she was wary of Crip revenge — but silent ogling is to be endured. When she and Barney entered the coffee shop, the van backed into an alley to turn around and went back the way it came. 

They had to wait for a booth in the crowded ham and egg place while the waiter yelled in Hindi to the cook, who handled meat with long tongs and a guilty expression. 

“Let’s eat,” Starling said when they were seated. “It’s on Uncle Sam. How’s it going, Barney?” 

“The job’s okay.” 

“What is it?” 

“Orderly, LPN.” 

“I figured you for an RN by now, or maybe medical school.” 

Barney shrugged and reached for the creamer. He looked up at Starling. “They jam you up for shooting Evelda?” 

“We’ll have to see. Did you know her?” 

“I saw her once, when they brought in her husband, Dijon. He was dead, he bled out on them before they ever got him in the ambulance. 

He was leaking clear IV when he got to us. She wouldn’t let him go and tried to fight the nurses. 

I had to … you know … 

Handsome woman, strong too. They didn’t bring her in after —” 

“No, she was pronounced at the scene.” 

“I would think so.” 

“Barney, after you turned over Dr Lecter to the Tennessee people—” 

“They weren’t civil to him.” 

“After you—” 

“And they’re all dead now.” 

“Yes. His keepers managed to stay alive for three days

You lasted eight years keeping Dr Lecter.” 

It was six years — he was there before I came.” 

“How’d you do it, Barney? If you don’t mind my asking, how’d you manage to last with him? It wasn’t just being civil.” 

Barney looked at his reflection in his spoon, first convex and then concave, and thought a moment. 

Dr Lecter had perfect manners, not stiff, but easy and elegant. I was working on some correspondence courses and he shared His Mind with me

That didn’t mean he wouldn’t Kill Me any second if he got the chanceone quality in a person doesn’t rule out any other quality. They can exist side by side, Good and Terrible

Socrates said it a lot better. 

In maximum lock-down you can’t afford to forget that, ever. If you keep it in mind, you’re all right. Dr Lecter may have been sorry he showed me Socrates.” 

To Barney, lacking the disadvantage of formal schooling, Socrates was a fresh experience, with the quality of an encounter. 

Security was separate from conversation, a whole other thing,” he said. “Security was never personal, even when I had to shut off his mail or put him in restraints.” 

“Did you talk with Dr Lecter a lot?” 

“Sometimes he went months without saying anything, and sometimes we’d talk, late at night when the crying died down

In fact — I was taking these courses by mail and I knew diddly — and he showed me a whole world, literally, of stuff—Suetonius, Gibbon, all that.” 

Barney picked up his cup. He had a streak of orange Betadine on a fresh scratch across the back of his hand. 

“Did you ever think when he escaped that he might come after you?” 

Barney shook his huge head. “He told me once that, whenever it was ‘feasible,’ he preferred to eat The Rude. 

Free-range Rude,’ he called them.” 

Barney laughed, a rare sight. He has little baby teeth and his amusement seems a touch maniacal, like a baby’s glee when he blows his pablum in a goo-goo uncle’s face. Starling wondered if he had stayed underground with the loonies too long. 

“What about you, did you ever feel … creepy after he got away? Did you think he might come after you?” Barney asked. 

“No.” 

“Why?” 

“He said he wouldn’t.” 

This answer seemed oddly satisfactory to them both. 

The eggs arrived. Barney and Starling were hungry and they ate steadily for a few minutes. Then … “Barney, when Dr Lecter was transferred to Memphis, I asked you for his drawings out of his cell and you brought them to me. What happened to the rest of the stuff —books, papers? The hospital doesn’t even have his medical records.” 

“There was this big upheaval.” Barney paused, tapping the salt shaker against his palm. “There was a big upheaval, you know at the hospital. I got laid off, a lot of people got laid off, and stuff just got scattered. There’s no telling—” 

“Excuse me?” Starling said, “I couldn’t hear what you said for the racket in here. 

I found out last night that Dr Lecter’s annotated and signed copy of Alexandre Dumas’ Dictionary of Cuisine came up at a private auction in New York two years ago. It went to a private collector for sixteen thousand dollars. 

The seller’s affidavit of ownership was signed ‘Cary Phlox.’ 

You know ‘Cary Phlox,’ Barney? I hope you do because he did the handwriting on your employment application at the hospital where you’re working but he signed it ‘Barney.’ 

Made out your tax return too. Sorry I missed what you were saying before. Want to start over? What did you get for the book, Barney?” 

“Around ten,” Barney said, looking straight at her. Starling nodded. “The receipt says ten-five. What did you get for that interview with the Tattler after Dr Lecter escaped?” 

“Fifteen G’s.” 

“Cool. Good for you. You made up all that bull you told those people.” 

“I knew Dr Lecter wouldn’t mind. He’d be disappointed if I didn’t jerk them around.” 

“He attacked the nurse before you got to Baltimore State?” 

“Yes.” 

“His shoulder was dislocated.” 

“That’s what I understand.” “Was there an X ray taken?” “Most likely.” “I want the X ray.” “Ummmm.” “I found out Lecter autographs are divided into two groups, the ones written in ink, or preincarceration, and crayon or felt-tip writing from the asylum. Crayon’s worth more, but I expect you know that. Barney, I think you have all that stuff and you figure on parceling it out over the years to the autograph trade.” Barney shrugged and said nothing. “I think you’re waiting for him to be a hot topic again. What do you want, Barney?” 

“I want to see every Vermeer in the world before I die.” “Do I need to ask who got you started on Vermeer?” “We talked about a lot of things in the middle of the night.” 

“Did you talk about what he’d like to do if he was free?” 

“No. Dr Lecter has no interest in hypothesis. He doesn’t believe in syllogism, or synthesis, or any absolute.” 

“What does he believe in?” 

Chaos. And you don’t even have to believe in it. It’s self-evident.” 

Starling wanted to indulge Barney for the moment. 

“You say that like you believe it,” she said, “but your whole job at Baltimore State was maintaining order. You were the chief orderly. You and I are both in the order business. Dr Lecter never got away from you.” 

“I explained that to you.” 

“Because you never let your guard down. Even though in a sense you fraternized—” 

“I did not fraternize,” Barney said. “He’s nobody’s brother. We discussed matters of mutual interest. At least the stuff was interesting to me when I found out about it.” 

“Did Dr Lecter ever make fun of you for not knowing something?” 

“No. Did he make fun of you?” 

“No,” she said to save Barney’s feelings, as she recognized for the first time the compliment implied in the monster’s ridicule. 

“He could have made fun of me if he’d wanted to. Do you know where the stuff is, Barney?” 

“Is there a reward for finding it?” 

Starling folded her paper napkin and put it under the edge of her plate. 

“The reward is my not charging you with obstruction of justice. I gave you a walk before when you bugged my desk at the hospital.” 

“That bug belonged to the late Dr Chilton.” 

“Late? How do you know he’s the late Dr Chilton?” 

“Well, he’s seven years late anyway,” Barney said. “I’m not expecting him anytime soon. Let me ask you, what would satisfy you, Special Agent Starling?” 

“I want to see the X ray. I want the X ray. If there are books of Dr Lecter’s, I want to see them.” “Say we came upon the stuff, what would happen to it afterward?” “Well, the truth is I can’t be sure. The U.S. Attorney might seize all the material as evidence in the investigation of the escape. Then it’ll molder in his Bulky Evidence Room. If I examine the stuff and find nothing useful in the books, and I say so, you could claim that Dr Lecter gave them to you. He’s been in absentia seven years, so you might exercise a civil claim. He has no known relatives. I would recommend that any innocuous material be handed over to you. You should know my recommendation is at the low end of the totem pole. You wouldn’t ever get the X ray back probably or the medical report, since they weren’t his to give.” “And if I explain to you that I don’t have the stuff?” “Lecter material will become really hard to sell because we’ll put out a bulletin on it and advise the market that we’ll seize and prosecute for receiving and possession. I’ll exercise a search and seizure warrant on your premises.” “Now that you know where my premises is. Or is it premises are?” “I’m not sure. I can tell you, if you turn the material over, you won’t get any grief for having taken it, considering what would have happened to it if you’d left it in place. As far as promising you’d get it back, I can’t promise for sure.” Starling rooted in her purse for punctuation. “You know, Barney, I have the feeling you haven’t gotten an advanced medical degree because maybe you can’t get bonded. Maybe you’ve got a prior somewhere. See? Now look at that—I never pulled a rap sheet on you, I never checked.” “No, you just looked at my tax return and my job application is all. I’m touched.” “If you’ve got a prior, maybe the USDA in that jurisdiction could drop a word, get you expunged.” 

Barney mopped his plate with a piece of toast. “You about finished? Let’s walk a little.” 

“I saw Sammie, remember he took over Miggs’s cell? He’s still living in it,” Starling said when they were outside. “I thought the place was condemned.” 

“It is.” 

“Is Sammie in a program?” 

“No, he just lives there in the dark.” 

“I think you ought to blow the whistle on him. He’s a brittle diabetic, he’ll die. Do you know why Dr Lecter made Miggs swallow his tongue?” 

“I think so.” 

“He killed him for offending you. That was just the specific thing. Don’t feel bad — he might have done it anyway.” 

They continued past Barney’s apartment house to the lawn where the dove still circled the body of its dead mate. Barney shooed it with his hands. 

“Go on,” he said to the bird. “That’s long enough to grieve. You’ll walk around until the cat gets you.” 

The dove flew away whistling. They could not see where it lit. 

Barney picked up the dead bird. The smooth-feathered body slid easily into his pocket. 

“You know, Dr Lecter talked about you a little, once

Maybe the last time I talked to him, one of the last times. 

The bird reminds me.
 You want to know what he said?” 

“Sure,” Starling said. Her breakfast crawled a little, and she was determined not to flinch. 

“We were talking about inherited, hardwired behavior. He was using genetics in roller pigeons as an example. They go way up in the air and roll over and over backwards in a display, falling toward the ground. 

There are shallow rollers and deep rollers. You can’t breed two deep rollers or the offspring will roll all the way down, crash and die

What he said was ‘Officer Starling is a deep roller, Barney. We’ll hope one of her parents was not.’” 

Starling had to chew on that. “What’ll you do with the bird?” she asked. 

“Pluck it and eat it,” Barney said. “Come on to the house and I’ll give you the X ray and the books.” 

Carrying the long package back toward the hospital and her car, Starling heard the surviving mourning dove call once from the trees.

He might be a god or he might be a special chief -- that's why we are thinking of having a talk with him.



DUNBAR (V.O.) 
It is the loneliest of times...
 but I cannot say that 
I am unhappy.

 EXT. PRAIRIE - DAY

 Just as Dunbar did on his trip out with Timmons, someone is running a palm over the tips of the tall prairie grass. This hand, however, is red.

 A lone Indian is standing in the grass, his pony at his side. 
He is a real Indian; 
tough, wild and free
He is a person of special maturity. He radiates wisdom and is a man of responsibility in his community. 
He is a Sioux medicine man. 
He is KICKING BIRD.

 EXT. RIVER BANK - DAY

 Dunbar is squatting naked at the edge of the stream, pounding the dirt out of his trousers on a little rock ledge. He rises, wringing out the pants, and wades across the river.

 On the opposite bank he spreads the pants on a low bush. Then he looks along the river. For some distance every bush and shrub is draped with the lieutenant's laundry, all of it drying in the sun.

 EXT. SEDGEWICK - DAY

 The spectacular face of Kicking Bird is staring at something.

 He's looking thoughtfully at the "new" Fort Sedgewick; the tidy grounds, the great awning, the repaired corral. The beautiful, buckskin standing inside.

 EXT. RIVER - DAY

 Comfortable with his nakedness, Dunbar is meandering along the stream in no particular hurry. 
He's very white. 
His skin practically 
sparkles in the sun.

 Dunbar is making his way up the bluff. The steepest part is at the lip and here he drops to all fours.

 Dunbar's face comes into view. He freezes.

 Someone is creeping under the shade of the awning... an aboriginal man.

 Dunbar's head pops down behind the bluff.

 The lieutenant is down on his naked haunches. His heart is pounding in his ears. Sweat has broken out on his face. His mouth is dry as ash.

 He's playing back images in fragments. A deerskin shirt, strands of hair sewn along each sleeve. Fringed leggins. A dark, faded breechclout. Moccasins with beading. A single, large feather drooping behind a head of shiny, black hair. Braids wrapped in fur. A lethal stone club hanging from a red hand. No eyebrows on a magnificent, primitive face.

 Dunbar stays in a crouch, trying to think on jellied legs. His breathing has quickened. His mouth is open.

 A horses' whinny startles him.

 Ever so slowly, the lieutenant peers over the bluff.

 The aboriginal man is in the corral. He's walking slowly toward Cisco. One hand is held out reassuringly, the other is grasping a rope. He's making gentle, cooing sounds and is only a step or two from being able to loop his line over the horse's neck.

 DUNBAR You there!

 Kicking Bird jumps straight into the air. As he lands he whirls to meet the voice that startled him.

 Dunbar is coming. His hands are clenched and his arms are swinging stiffly at his sides.

 Kicking Bird has turned to stone at the sight of this horror. With a sharp intake of breath, he staggers back a few steps. Then he turns and runs, tearing through the corral fence as if it were made of twigs. He leaps onto his horse and quirts the pony into full gallop.

 Dunbar is watching from the yard. His jaw is clenched, his hands are still fisted.

 The great grassland is empty. Kicking Bird is gone.

 INT. SUPPLY HOUSE - DAY

 The first of three carbine boxes is lugged off the stack.

 EXT. PRAIRIE - DAY

 The three boxes are stacked on the open prairie. Suddenly a shovelful of dirt flies out of an unseen spot next to the crates. Another flying shovelful. And another.

 DUNBAR (V.O.) 
Have made first contact 
with A Wild Indian. 

One came to The Fort and 
tried to steal My Horse. 

Do not know how many more are in the vicinity but I am taking steps for another visitation. Am burying excess ordnance, lest it fall into enemy hands.

 The last square of sod is placed carefully on the surface of the earth. Dunbar drives a bleached rib bone into the ground at an angle just in front of his cache.

 Dunbar steps back from his work. The replaced sod is invisible. The guns will not be found.

 EXT. PRAIRIE - DAY

 The Lieutenant sits atop Cisco scouting along the bluff. Fort Sedgewick lies in the background.

 INT. QUARTERS - DAY

 Dunbar's journal lies 
open on his bunk. 
We hear a digging sound 
in the background. 
The Lieutenant is facing the wall of his quarters. Using a bayonet as a cutting tool, he has carved a window out of the sod. He's nearly finished and is just tidying up.

 DUNBAR (V.O.) 
Have made all the preparations I can think of. 
I cannot mount an adequate defense 
but will try to make 
a big impression 
when They come. 
Waiting.

 Finished, he retreats to his bunk and sits staring across at his new window. He glances at the journal by his side and has a thought. He picks it up and starts to write.

 DUNBAR (V.O.) The man I encountered was a magnificent looking fellow.

 EXT. TEN BEARS' LODGE - DAY

 An old Indian man sits in the shade outside his lodge. His skin is leathery, his hair grey and wispy but his eyes are bright as diamonds. He is TEN BEARS, well past sixty, but still strong enough to be the head man. He is, for the most part, oblivious to the GRANDCHILD squirming in his lap.

 He's smoking a long-stemmed pipe, but the main object of his interest is an old woman squatting next to him... PRETTY SHIELD. She's pounding away at something in a bowl.

 Ten Bears looks up to notice Kicking Bird. The medicine man is passing not far away and Ten Bears' eyes follow him carefully, not glancing away until Kicking Bird has ducked into his lodge.

TEN BEARS 
Kicking Bird has been keeping to himself these last few days. I do not like to see our medicine man walking so alone.

The old woman looks up from her pounding but does not respond.

TEN BEARS 
What does his wife say?


PRETTY SHIELD 
He is keeping to himself.

Ten Bears gives his wife a challenging look and she bristles.

PRETTY SHIELD 
That's what she says.

 Ten Bears accepts this. Then he looks down at the bowl.

TEN BEARS 
Make sure that meat is soft... 
my teeth hurt.

Ten Bears looks once more at the entrance of Kicking Bird's lodge.

 INT. KICKING BIRD'S LODGE - DAY

Kicking Bird sits next to the fire playing with his son but he is preoccupied with something.

There is a rustle of movement at the tent flap, and Ten Bears peers in.

TEN BEARS 
May I come in?

The little boy races over to the old chief, Kicking Bird makes a move to pull him back, but Ten Bears indicates the boy should stay.

TEN BEARS 
No, no let him sit with me.

 There is silence as the two men settle themselves by the fire, the little boy content in Ten Bears' lap.

TEN BEARS 
Our country seems good this summer, but I have not been out to see it.

KICKING BIRD 
Yes... it is good. 
The grass is rich. 
The game is plenty and not running away.

TEN BEARS 
I am glad to hear it. 
But the buffalo are late. 
I always worry about the bellies of our children.

 A brief silence.

KICKING BIRD 
I was thinking of a dance.

TEN BEARS 
Yes, a dance is always a good idea. 
It would be good to have 
A Strong Sign.

Kicking Bird seems 
suddenly uncomfortable. 
The little boy leaves.

 KICKING BIRD 
Yes.

TEN BEARS 
There's a funny thing about Signs. 
They are always flying in our faces. 

We know when they are Bad or Good 
but sometimes they are Strange 
and there is no way 
to understand them. 

Sometimes they make people crazy
 but a smart man will take 
such a sign into himself 
and let it run around 
for two or three days. 

If he is still confused 
he will tell somebody. 

He might come to you 
or to me and tell it. 

A smart man always does that.

Ten Bears picks up the pipe 
and puffs away, 
seemingly without care.

 KICKING BIRD 
I have seen such A Sign.

 TEN BEARS Oh?

 KICKING BIRD I saw a man, a white man.

 Ten Bears' eyes get big for a moment. Then he thinks.

 TEN BEARS Just one?

 KICKING BIRD Just one. He was naked.

 Ten Bears thinks some more.

 TEN BEARS Are you sure it was a man?

 KICKING BIRD I saw his sex.

 TEN BEARS Did you speak to him?

 KICKING BIRD No.

 Ten Bears rubs at his old eyes with both hands.

 TEN BEARS We will council on this.

 EXT. TEN BEARS' LODGE - NIGHT

 A teenaged boy, SMILES A LOT and his two buddies OTTER and WORM lie prone outside Ten Bears' home. They are peeking under the tipi's rolled-up sides. Their eyes are wide, for inside there's plenty to see and hear. The village's most influential warriors have squeezed into the lodge for this big and important meeting

 INT. TEN BEARS' LODGE - NIGHT

 The eldest and most respected men of the band, including Ten Bears, his pal STONE CALF, an influential warrior named WIND IN HIS HAIR, and Kicking Bird are seated around the fire.

 Crowded around them, in a high state of excitement, are the village's leading warriors. The meeting is in progress.

 KICKING BIRD 
He might be a god or he might be a special chief -- that's why we are thinking of having a talk with him.

 There is a little murmuring around the fire, and it goes silent. Wind In His Hair rises to speak.

 WIND IN HIS HAIR I do not care for this talk about a white man. Whatever kind of white man he is, he is not Sioux and that makes him less. We've camped here for ten days now and each day our scouts find nothing. One old bull with wolves tearing him apart, nothing more. We need meat -- not talk.

 KICKING BIRD 
You are right, we need meat today and tomorrow. But we must also have meat in ten years.

 Kicking Bird pauses here. 
Everyone is listening attentively.

 KICKING BIRD 
But the whites are coming. Our friends the Shoshone and the Kiowa, even our enemies, agree on this -- the whites are coming. More than can be counted.

 WIND IN HIS HAIR 
Kicking Bird is always 
looking ahead 
and that is good. 

But when I hear that 
more whites are coming -- 
more than can be counted, 
I want to laugh. 

We took a hundred horses from these people, there was no honor in it. 
They don't ride well, they don't shoot well, they're dirty. They have no women, no children. They could not even make it through one winter in our country. 
And these people are said to flourish? 
I think they will all be dead 
in ten years.

 There is a surge of enthusiasm in the lodge and Wind In His Hair is riding the crest of it.

 WIND IN HIS HAIR 
I think this white man 
is probably lost.

 This parting shot prompts a good-natured round of laughter.

 KICKING BIRD 
Wind In His Hair 
has spoken straight, 
his words are strong 
and I have heard them. 

It's True, The Whites are a poor race and it's hard to understand Them. 

But when I see one white man alone
without fear in Our Country, 
I do not think he is lost
I think he may have medicine

I see someone who might speak for all the white people who are coming. I think this is a person with which treaties might be struck.

WIND IN HIS HAIR 
This White Man cannot 
cover our lodges, 
or string our bows, 
or feed our children. 

I will take some good men... 
there are many here tonight.

 We will ride to the soldier fort,
 we will shoot some arrows 
into this White Man :
If he Truly has Medicine 
he will not be hurt. 
If he has no medicine 
he will be dead.

This is the best idea so far and there is much talk around the fire. They quiet down as Ten Bears prepares to speak.

TEN BEARS 
It is easy to become 
confused by these questions. 

It is hard to know what to do. 
No man can tell another 
how he will be. 

But I Know This... 
Killing a White Man 
is a delicate matter. 
If you Kill one, more are sure to come. 
We should talk about this some more.

 He drops his head, 
closes his eyes 
and starts to fall asleep. 
The meeting is over.

Monday, 30 May 2022

Help Me.



Master Qui-Gon, sir,
Wait, I’m Tired…!

I’m trying to keep 
Something Alive
and I don’t think 
I can do it…..

Anakin..!!
DROP!!

Why Do We 
Fall, Bruce…?


“And so, this is one of the reasons I think 
Men are bailing-out of 
so much of academia
and maybe 
The Academic World in general

And maybe,
The World in general…..


"So, part of The Problem is,
Men actually don’t have 
any idea 
How to Compete 
with Women. 

Because The Problem is that 
if you unleash yourself completely
then you’re an 
Absolute Bully

And there’s no 
doubt about that, 
because even if 
Men unleash themselves 
on other Men
that can be pretty goddamn 
brutal, especially for 
The Men that’re 
really tough. 

And so that just 
Doesn’t Happen 
with Women, ever

So you can’t 
unleash yourself completely -- 

Because, 
If You Win
You’re a Bully;
and If You Lose, 
well, You’re just 
bloody pathetic

So, How The Hell are 
You supposed to play 
A Game like that…?” 

The Father, Senex,
Lord of The Dance :
You Know — I’ve learned 
a few things over The Years :

Ye can’t…. 
Ye can’t  make An Omelette
without crackin’ some eggs

What Doesn’t Kill Ye
makes Ye Stronger;

We ARE What We Eat.

You Buy Cheap
You Buy Twice.

The Open HAND, 
has The Strongest Grip.

•NEVER• parachute 
into an area, 
Y’ve just BOMBED….





PAGLIA
I can remember, still, 
the life of the agrarian era - 
which was for most of Human History - 
The Agrarian Era, where 
there was The World of Men
and The World of Women. 

And the sexes had very little 
to do with each other. 
Each had Power and Status 
in its own realm. 

And they laughed 
at each other, 
in essence. 

The Women had enormous power
In fact, The Older Women rulednot 
The Young Beautiful Women like today. 

But the older you were the more 
you had control over everyone
including the mating and marriage.
 
There were no Doctors
so The Old Women were like midwives 
and knew all the ins and outs 
and [had] inherited knowledge 
about pregnancy and 
all these other things. 

I can remember this. 
And the joy that women had 
with each other all day long. 

Cooking with each other, 
being companions to each other, 
talking, conversing. 

My Mother remembered
as a small child in Italy, 
when it was time to 
Do The Laundry 
they would take The Laundry 
up The Hill to The Fountain 
and do it by hand

They would sing, they would picnic, and so on. 

We get a glimpse of that in the Odyssey when Odysseus is thrown up naked on the shores of Phaeacia and he hears the sound of women, young women, laughing and singing. And it’s Nausicaa, the princess, bringing the women to do the laundry. It’s exactly the same thing. So there was. . . 

Each gender had its OWN hierarchy, its OWN values, its OWN way of talking. And the sexes RARELY intersected. 

I can remember in my childhood in a holiday - it could be a Christmas, it could be a Thanksgiving, whatever - women would be cooking all day long, everyone would sit down to eat, and then after that the women would retire en masse to the kitchen. And the men would go. . . I would look at them through the window and see all the men. The men would be all outside, usually gathered around the car - at a time when cars didn’t work as well as they do today - with the hood up. And the men would be standing with their hands on their hips like that. Everyone’s staring at the engine. That’s how I learned men were refreshing themselves by studying something technical and mechanical after being with the women during the dinner.

So all of these problems of today are the direct consequence of women’s emancipation and freedom from housework thanks to capitalism, which made it possible for women to have jobs outside the home for the very first time in the nineteenth century. No longer to be dependent on husband or father or brother. 

So this great thing that’s happened to us, allowing us to be totally self-supporting, independent agents has produced all this animosity between men and women, because women feel unhappy. Women today - wherever I go, whether it’s Italy or Brazil or England or America or Toronto - the upper-middle class professional women are unhappy, miserable. And they don’t know why they’re unhappy. They want to blame it on men. The men must change. Men must become more like women. No. That is the wrong way to go. It’s when men are men, and understand themselves as men, are secure as men - then you’re going to be happier. 

Peterson: There’s nothing more dangerous than a weak man. 

Paglia: Absolutely. Especially all these quislings spouting feminist rhetoric. When I hear that it makes me sick. But here’s the point. Men and women have never worked side by side, ever. Maybe on the farms when you were like. . . Maybe one person is in the potato field and the other one is over here doing tomatoes, or whatever. You had families working side by side, exhausted with each other. No time to have any clash of this. It was a collaborative effort on farms and so on. Never in all of human history have men and women been working side by side. And women are now. . . The pressure about Silicon Valley - they’re all so sexist, they don’t allow women in, and so on. Men are being men in Silicon Valley. 

Peterson: Especially the engineers. 

Paglia: And the women are demanding that. . . ‘Oh, this is terrible, you’re being sexist.’ Maybe the sexes have their own particular form of rhetoric, their own particular form of identity. Maybe we need to reexamine this business about. . . Maybe we have to perhaps accept some degree of tension and conflict between the sexes in a work environment. 

I don’t mean harassment. I’m talking about women feeling disrespected. Somehow their opinions, when they express them, are not taken seriously. Even Hillary Clinton is complaining. When a woman writes something online she’s attacked immediately. Everyone is attacked online. What are you talking about? The world is tough. The world is competitive. Identity is honed by conflict. The idea that there should be no conflict, that we have to be in this bath of approbation. . . It’s infantile. 

Peterson: That’s right. It’s absolutely infantile. Okay, so, a couple of things there. Well the first thing is that the agreeableness trait that divides men and women 16

most. . . There’s three things that divide women and men most particularly from the psychometric perspective. One is that women are more agreeable than men, and so that seems to be the primary maternal dimension as far as I can tell. It’s associated with a desire to avoid conflict. But it’s associated with interpersonal closeness, compassion, politeness. Women are reliably higher than men, especially in the Scandinavian countries and in the countries where egalitarianism has progressed the farthest. So that’s where the difference is maximized, which is one of the things James Damore pointed out quite correctly in his infamous Google Memo. Women are higher in negative emotion. So that’s anxiety and emotional pain. That difference is approximately the same size. And again that maximizes in egalitarian societies, which is extremely interesting. And then the biggest difference is the difference in interest between people and things. And so women are more interested in people, and men are more interested in things, which goes along quite nicely with your car anecdote. But the thing about men interacting with men again is that it isn’t that they respect each other’s viewpoints. That’s not exactly right. What happens with a man. . . I know a lot of men that I would regard as remarkably tough people for one reason or another. And everything you do with them is a form of combat. Like if you want your viewpoint taken seriously, often you have to yell them down. They’re not going to stop talking unless you start talking over them. It’s not like men are automatically giving respect to other men, because that just doesn’t happen. It’s that the combat is there, and it’s expected. And one of the problems. . . And so, this is one of the reasons I think men are bailing out of so much of academia and maybe the academic world in general. And maybe the world in general. Men actually don’t have any idea how to compete with women. Because the problem is that if you unleash yourself completely, then you’re an absolute bully. And there’s no doubt about that, because if men unleash themselves on other men, that can be pretty goddamn brutal, especially for the men that really tough. And so that just doesn’t happen with women ever. So you can’t unleash yourself completely. If you win, you’re a bully. If you lose, well you’re just bloody pathetic. So how the hell are you supposed to play a game like that? I’ve worked with lots of women in law firms in Canada, for example. And high achieving women, like really remarkable people I would say. And they’re often nonplussed, I would say, by the attitude of the men in the law firm, because they would like to see everyone pulling together because they’re all part of the same team. Whereas the men are like at each other’s throats in a cooperative way because they want the law firm to succeed, but they want to be the person who is at the top of the success hierarchy. And that doesn’t jive well with the more cooperative ethos that’s part and parcel of agreeableness. So we don’t really have any idea how to integrate male and female dominance hierarchies.