Sunday, 22 November 2020

CLARICE


You fell in love with 
The Bureau, The Institution
only to discover, after giving it 
everything you've got,
That it Does Not Love You Back.

That, in fact, it resents you.

Resents you more than 
the Husband and Children
 you gave up to it.


You Serve 
The Idea of Order, Clarice —
They Don't.

You Believe in 
The Oath You Took —
They Don't.

You feel it is 
Your Duty to Protect The Sheep — 
They Don't.

They Don't Like You
Because You're Not Like Them.

They Hate You 
and 
They Envy You.

They're Weak and Unruly,
and 
Believe in Nothing.



What is Her Name?
Clarisse
fem. proper name, often a diminutive of Clara and its relatives. Also, "a nun of the order of St. Clare" (1790s); the Franciscan order also known as the Poor Clares (c. 1600).




MOTHER SUPERIOR: 
We face Danger
we face Evilwhich stands at 
The Gate 
of our Most Holy Sanctuary.

God is with us, as we know.
God's love is Eternal.
This we know too.

Tonight, in our most deadly hour 
Do We Think Our God Will Remember us?

Will He Reach Down 
and 
Save Us 
from Death's Shadow?

NO.
No, He will NOT.

Where, in Our World 
is God to be found?

In Our Prayer?
No.

In our song?
No.

In Our Suffering, 
in Our Endurance?
No.

Faith is Not a Transaction.

You do not barter with The Infinite.

You ALIGN With It.

So, then, 
Where Do We Find Our God?

Sisters, I will tell you.

When you stand in The Deepest Pit, alone, 
without Hope or Help
and yet still know 
Right from Wrong...

When there is only 
Darkness and Despair 
and yet you feel 
humming in your blood
the difference between 
Good and Bad...

When you are 
beyond rescue or reward or judgment...

And you STILL look 
Evil in The Face and Say, 

"No! This far but no further.”

"No!"

Whose Voice is that 
who is with you in 
That Darkness...?
Whose Voice keeps you to The Path?

Darkness and Evil may seem 
compelling to us all, 
and I believe it is because, 
in THEIR Presence, 
we can FEEL God in Our Hearts.

No, He will not reach down to Save Us.

We will RISE to meet Him.

Let us pray.

PRAYS SOFTLY

MOTHER SUPERIOR: 
Ahem. Ahem.

BLADE SLICES

She was clearing her throat.

NUNS GASP AND QUIVER

I think it's fine now.
Oh, ladies, who's next? Boo!



"I regard the two major male archetypes in 20th Century literature as Leopold Bloom and Hannibal Lecter.

M.D. Bloom, the perpetual victim, the kind and gentle fellow who finishes last, represented an astonishing breakthrough to new levels of realism in the novel, and also symbolized the view of humanity that hardly anybody could deny c. 1900-1950. History, sociology, economics, psychology et al. confirmed Joyce’s view of Everyman as Victim. Bloom, exploited and downtrodden by the Brits for being Irish and rejected by many of the Irish for being Jewish, does indeed epiphanize humanity in the first half of the 20th Century. And he remains a nice guy despite everything that happens…

Dr Lecter, my candidate for the male archetype of 1951-2000, will never win any Nice Guy awards, I fear, but he symbolizes our age as totally as Bloom symbolized his. Hannibal’s wit, erudition, insight into others, artistic sensitivity, scientific knowledge etc. make him almost a walking one man encyclopedia of Western Civilization. As for his “hobbies” as he calls them — well, according to the World Game Institute, since the end of World War II, in which 60,000,000 human beings were murdered by other human beings, 193, 000,000 more humans have been murdered by other humans in brush wars, revolutions, insurrections etc.

What better symbol of our age than A Serial Killer? Hell, can you think of any recent U.S. President who doesn’t belong in the Serial Killer Hall of Fame? 

And their motives make no more sense, and no less sense, than Dr Lecter’s Darwinian one-man effort to rid The Planet of those he finds outstandingly loutish and uncouth.


Robert Anton Wilson, 
at rawilson.com



PHONE RINGS

PHONE RINGS

VAN HELSING :
Get in The Box.

DRACULA :
How did you find me?

VAN HELSING :
It's not difficult to follow a trail of devastation.
The Sun is up.
You need to get in The Box.

DRACULA :
Um, you may not have noticed, but there's 
A Roof over My Head.

VAN HELSING :
I've noticed.

THE ROOF CAVES IN

DRACULA :
Whoa! Oh!

VAN HELSING :
Get in The Box.
Did you hear me?
Are you in The Box?




Dear Clarice,

I have followed with enthusiasm the course of your disgrace and public shaming.

My own never bothered me, except for the inconvenience of being incarcerated, but you may lack perspective.

In our discussions down in The Dungeon, it was apparent to me that Your Father, The Dead Night Watchman, figures largely in your value system.

I think your success in putting an end to Jame Gumb's career as a couturier pleased you most because you could imagine your father being pleased.

But now, alas, you're in bad odour with the FBI.

Do you imagine your daddy being shamed by your disgrace?

Do you see him in his plain pine boxcrushed by your failure?

The sorry, petty end of a promising career?

What is worst about this humiliation, Clarice?

Is it how your failure will reflect on your mommy and daddy?

Is your worst fear that people will now and forever believe they were, indeed, just good old trailer-camp, tornado-bait, white trash, and that perhaps you are, too?

Mmm?

By the way, I couldn't help noticing on the FBI's rather dull public website, that I have been hoisted from the Bureau's archives of the common criminal, and elevated to the more prestigious Ten Most Wanted list.

Is this coincidence, or are you back on the case?

If so, goody, goody, 'cause I need to come out of retirement and return to Public Life.

I imagine you sitting in a dark basement room, bent over papers and computer screens.

Is that accurate? Please tell me truly, Special Agent Starling.

Regards, your old pal,
Hannibal Lecter, M.D.

 
 
P.S., clearly this new assignment is not your choice.

Rather, I suppose it is part of the bargain, but you accepted it, Clarice.

Your job is to craft my doom, so I am not sure how well I should wish you, but I'm sure we'll have a lot of fun.

Ta-ta. 

"H."





[PHONE RINGING]

Hello?

LECTER: 
The power in that battery is low, Clarice.

I would have changed it,
but I didn't wanna wake you.

You're gonna have to use the other one in the charger.

Hopefully, the light on it is green by now.

Because this is gonna be a long call, and I can't let you off, because even though you've been stripped of your duties, I know you wouldn't abandon them.

You'll try to put on a trace.

So, we'll disconnect long enough for you to exchange the battery in the phone for the one in the charger.

Shall we say three seconds?

Are you ready?

Yes.

Go.

[PHONE RINGING]

Very good.

Thank you.

Remember, Clarice, if you get caught with a concealed, unlicensed firearm in the District of Columbia, the penalty is pretty stiff.

But bring the guns if you have to.
Now get in your car.

The reason we're doing it like this, Clarice, is because I like to watch you as we speak, with your eyes open.

No, it does not excite me, it pleases me.

You have very shapely feet.

Where are we now? 
Call it out.

 Massachusetts Avenue.

Take it.

I thought, to begin with, you might tell me how you're feeling.

About what?

The Masters you Serve, and how they've treated you.

Your career, such as it is.

Your Life, Clarice.

I thought we might talk about yours.

What's the next cross street?

Capitol Street.

In two blocks, make a left into Union Station. Park.

My Life? What is there to say about mine?
I have been in a state of hibernation for some time.

A little inactive, but now I'm back Home,

I'm very happy and very healthy.

You, though, it's you I'm worried about.

I'm fine.

No, you're certainly not fine, Clarice.

You fell in love with The Bureau, The Institution, 
only to discover, after giving it everything you've got,

That it Does Not Love You Back.

That, in fact, it resents you.

Resents you more than the husband and children you gave up to it.

Why is that, do you think?

Why are you so resented, Clarice?


Tell me.

Tell you? God bless you.
Well, isn't it clear?

You Serve The Idea of Order, Clarice —
They Don't.

You Believe in The Oath You Took —
They Don't.


You feel it is Your Duty to Protect The Sheep — 
They Don't.

They Don't Like You
Because You're Not Like Them.

They Hate You and They Envy You.

They're Weak and Unruly,
and Believe in Nothing.

Mason Verger wants to kill you, Dr Lecter.

Turn yourself in to me, and I promise no one will hurt you.

Will you stay with me in my prison cell and hold my hand, Clarice?

We could have some fun.

No, Mason Verger does not want to kill me, any more than I want to kill him.

He just wants to see me suffer in some unimaginable way.

He is rather twisted, you know.

Have you had the pleasure of meeting him?

I have.

Face to Face, so to speak?

Yes.

Attractive, isn't he?


Dr Lecter?

Dr Lecter?

Okay, back to you.
 
I want to know what it is you think you will do, now that Everything in The World you've ever cared about has been taken away from you.
-

I don't know, Dr Lecter.

Tell me, Clarice, do you think you'll work as a chambermaid at a motel on Route 66, just like your mommy?

Huh?

What are you thinking now?

Are you paying attention to me, ex-Special Agent Starling?

Are you, by any chance, trying to trace my whereabouts?


I'm being followed, Dr Lecter.

I know, I've seen them.

And now you're in a real dilemma, aren't you?

Do you continue to try to find me, 
knowing that you're leading them to me?

Do you have so much faith in your abilities, Clarice, that you honestly believe you could somehow simultaneously arrest me and them?

It could get very messy, Clarice, like the fish market.

Hey, Clarice.


Yeah?

What if I did it for you?


Did what?

Harmed them, Clarice.
The ones who have harmed you.

What if I made them scream apologies?

No, I shouldn't even say it, because you'll feel,
with your perfect grasp of Right and Wrong, that you were somehow accompli.

Don't help me.


No. Of course not.
Forget I said it.

Clarice, you were very, very warm.
You were so close.

And now you're getting colder again.
Yeah, warmer again.

Well, I think I've been generous enough with you, and The Clues.

You're on your own now, Clarice.


Dr Lecter.

Hope you like Them, Clarice. Ta-ta.


DRACULA :
So tell me, 
What is The Jonathan Harker Foundation?

VAN HELSING :
I can't seem to penetrate The  Skin.

DRACULA :
Oh?
Give it to me.
Take this.
Hold this.

HE SIGHS

Johnny was a fine man.
What has this place got to do with him?


VAN HELSING :
Oh, you remember Harker, then?

DRACULA :
Mm.

VAN HELSING :
This foundation was set up by Mina Murray, his fiancee.
Do you remember her?

[SHE SCREAMS]

DRACULA :
Barely.
Insipid little thing.
Flavourless, one imagines.

But you left her alive.

Go! Now!

VAN HELSING :
When her father died, she inherited his Fortune and with the cooperation of Sister Agatha's extended family, they set up this foundation
in Jonathan's name.

DRACULA :
So you run The Family Firm.
I've always approve of Inherited Power.
Democracy is The Tyranny of The Uninformed.
Only in blood... do we find The Truth, Zoe.

VAN HELSING :
Our primary purpose is medical research, but with the stipulation that, were you ever to be found, you would be trapped, studied, understood, and humanely fed.
You're a unique specimen. 

DRACULA :
No.
I'm a 500-year-old warlord.
And I know mercenaries when I see them.

Who's funding This Place?
Because people who can afford mercenaries are very rarely interested in Medicine....




You're withholding information.
I'm giving you everything.

Blood is Lives.

Everything is in The Blood, Zoe, 
if you know How to READ it.
Do you know How to Read it?

VAN HELSING :
You couldn't read mine.
You choked on it.

DRACULA :
I remember the flavour, though.
Um... what IS that?

You're...
You're fast, you're clever, driven.
But driven by what?

Agatha was always trying to Save Everybody, but you...

You hold yourself apart.

Friendless.
Loveless.
Childless.

Compromised. Corrupt, even.

Ahh!
Zoe Helsing, there's a Shadow on Your Heart.

I've sampled this bitter bouquet before, and these days, I believe, you call it...

SHE HISSES

..cancer.

That's why your blood was poison to me.
You're Dying





 
 
 
 
 Loser #1 :
No Fair. You lured Him with Produce.

Loser #2 :
Tough noogies. Still My Turn. 
Nice and Slow, baby.

Clarice :
If The Beetle moves One of Your Men, does that still count?

Loser #2 : 
Of Course it Counts. 
How Do YOU Play?
 
 
JACK :
 Starling. When - 
When I told That Sheriff we shouldn't talk in front of A Woman, that really burned you, didn't it?

It was just Smoke, Starling.
I had to get rid of him.

 
CLARICE :
It Matters, Mr. Crawford.
Cops Look to You to See How to Act.
It Matters.
 
 JACK :
Point Taken.








CBS has given a series commitment to a drama that will follow Clarice Starling after the events of “The Silence of the Lambs,” Variety has learned.
Titled “Clarice,” the series hails from writers and executive producers Alex Kurtzman and Jenny Lumet. Set in 1993, a year after the events of “The Silence of the Lambs,” the show is a deep dive into the untold personal story of Starling as she returns to the field to pursue serial murderers and sexual predators while navigating the high stakes political world of Washington, D.C.

“After more than 20 years of silence, we’re privileged to give voice to one of America’s most enduring heroes – Clarice Starling,” said Kurtzman and Lumet. “Clarice’s bravery and complexity have always lit the way, even as her personal story remained in the dark. But hers is the very story we need today: her struggle, her resilience, her victory. Her time is now, and always.”



Kurtzman will executive produce under his Secret Hideout banner, which is currently under a five-year deal at CBS Television Studios. Heather Kadin of Secret Hideout will also executive produce with Aaron Baiers co-executive producing. MGM And CBS Television Studios will serve as the studios.

In addition to “Clarice,” Kurtzman and Lumet are currently prepping a series adaptation of “The Man Who Fell to Earth” for streaming service CBS All Access.
The character of Starling originated in the novel “The Silence of the Lambs” by Thomas Harris, which was subsequently adapted into the film of the same name in 1991. Jodie Foster played Starling in that film, for which she won the best actress Oscar — one of five such statuettes the film took home, including best picture. The character then appeared in Harris’ follow up novel “Hannibal,” which was adapted into a film in 2001 with Julianne Moore taking over the role from Foster.
This marks the second time such a TV series has been in the works, with Lifetime originally developing their own “Clarice” back in 2012 with MGM, though that project did not move forward. Bryan Fuller also previously stated that if his NBC series “Hannibal” had run long enough, it would have likely featured the character.





Lumet wrote the screenplay for the critically-acclaimed film “Rachel Getting Married.” She is currently an executive producer on “Discovery” and a consulting producer on “Picard” in addition to co-writing and co-showrunning “The Man Who Fell to Earth.”
Kurtzman and Secret Hideout currently oversee the expanding “Star Trek” TV universe through their deal with CBS TV Studios. At All Access, Season 3 of “Star Trek: Discovery” is due out this year, while Sir Patrick Stewart will reprise his iconic role in the upcoming series “Star Trek: Picard.” The animated series “Star Trek: Lower Decks” is also set to debut this year, with several other projects in the works. Kurtzman is also an executive producer on the “Hawaii Five-O reboot” at CBS.

“Superhero stories were written to be universal and inclusive, but often they’ve been aimed, it must be said, at boys and young men. Perhaps that’s why a mainstream myth has developed in which comic-book superheroines are all big-breasted Playboy girls with impossibly nipped waists and legs like jointed stilts in six-inch heels. But while it’s true that superhero costumes allow artists to draw what is effectively the nude figure in motion, there have in fact been more female superhero body types than male.

  The first superheroine, you may be surprised to learn, was not a voluptuous cutie in thigh boots but a raw-faced middle-aged housewife called Ma Hunkel, who wore a blanket cape and a pan on her head in her debut appearance, All-American no. 20, 1940. A harridan with the build of a brick shithouse she was the first “real-world” superhero—with no powers, a DIY outfit, and a strictly local beat—and the first parody of the superhero genre all in one. Ma Hunkel, aka the Red Tornado, was a Lower East Side lampoon of Siegel and Shuster’s lofty idealism. The mainstream has forgotten Ma Hunkel, although, like all the rest, she’s still a part of the DC universe and now has a granddaughter named Maxine Hunkel, a talkative, realistically proportioned, and likeable teenage girl who also challenges the superbimbo stereotype.

  But, of course, the comic-book industry in the throes of the war machine did churn out its fair share of pinup bombshells and no-nonsense dames with names like Spitfire and Miss Victory, or the strangely comforting Pat Parker, War Nurse. With no particular ax to grind against the Axis forces, Pat Parker was driven only by her desire to dress up like a showgirl and take to the battlefields of Western Europe on life-threatening missions of mercy. She was prepared to take on entire tank divisions with a refugee quivering under each arm. What made her tank-battling activities especially brave was the fact that this war nurse had no special powers and wore a costume so insubstantial, there could be nothing secret about her lunch, let alone her identity. But, absurd as she may seem, she did her best to exemplify the can-do, Rosie the Riveter spirit of those women who were “manning” the home front.”




It is your turn to tell me, Clarice.
You don't have any more vacations to sell.
Why did you leave that ranch?

Doctor, we don't have any more time for any of this now.

But we don't RECKON time The Same Way, do we, Clarice?
This is all the time you'll ever have.

Later. Now, please, Listen to Me.
We've only got five -

NO! I Will Listen NOW.
After Your Father's Murder, you were orphaned.
You were 10 years old.
You went to live with Cousins on a sheep and horse ranch in Montana.
And?

And one morning, I just ran away.

Not "just," Clarice. What set you off?
You started at what time?

Early. Still Dark.

Then Something Woke you, didn't it?
Was it a Dream?
What was it?

I heard a Strange Noise.

What was it?

It was. . . screaming.
Some kind of screaming, like a Child's Voice.

What Did You Do?

I went downstairs, outside.
I crept up into the barn house.
I was so scared to look inside, but I HAD to.

What Did You SEE, Clarice?
What Did You See?

Lambs.
They were screaming.

They were slaughtering The Spring Lambs?

And they were screaming.

And you ran away?

No.
First I tried to free them. I -
I opened The Gate to their pen, but they wouldn't run.
They just stood there, confused.
They Wouldn't Run.

But you could, and you DID, didn't you?

Yes.
I took one lamb and I ran away as fast as I could.

Where were you going, Clarice?

I don't know. I didn't have any food, any water, and it was very cold.
It was very cold.
I thought -
I thought if I could Save Just One, but. . .
He was so HEAVY.
He was so heavy.
I didn't get more than a few miles when The Sheriff's Car picked me up.
The Rancher was so angry, he sent me to live at the Lutheran orphanage in Bozeman.
I never saw The Ranch again.

What became of Your Lamb, Clarice?

They Killed Him.

You still wake up sometimes, don't you?

Wake up in The Dark and hear The Screaming of The Lambs.

Yes.

And you think if you Saved poor Catherine, you could make them stop, don't you?
You think, if Catherine Lives, you won't wake up in The Dark ever again. . . to that awful Screaming of The Lambs.

I don't know. I don't know.

Thank You, Clarice.
Thank You.

Tell me his name, Doctor.

Dr. Chilton, I presume?

I think you know each other.

Okay.

- We found her.
- Let's go.

It's your turn, Doctor.

-Out.
-Tell me his name.

Sorry, ma'am, I've got orders.
Have to put you on a plane.

Come on now.

Brave Clarice.

You will let me know when those lambs
stop screaming, won't you?

Tell me his name, Doctor.

Clarice!

Your case file.

Good-bye, Clarice

Under The Lake



This conversation of neutralizing the charge from taboo words is also a premise of RAW’s Ishtar Rising, which you wrote the introduction of the newest reprinting of the book by Hilaritas Press. Also, in that book, Wilson explores the mythical trope of the underground journey, something explored and unpacked in nearly all his books.

Joseph Campbell has some cool stuff to say about the Underground Journey, mainly that in all his studies of world myths he had observed two types of underground journey stories. One type was when the underground swallows up a poor soul like the whale did to Jonah. When this happens, the sole purpose of the seeker is to just survive the ordeal and return to the surface in one piece. The second type of journey through the underground occurs when the hero or heroine must descend into the depths and kill a monster. Campbell mentions one myth where the hero must slay a dragon then drink its blood to gain its power and move on and continue their quest. Campbell associates this killing of the dragon and drinking its blood as an integration of our shadows into our psyches. By integrating these elements of ourselves we then gain the sort of personal power needed to live a joyful and energetically engaged life.

GM: Yeah, and the story of the underground journey in Britain often involves someone finding a cave where he sees all of King Arthur’s knights asleep just waiting for the time of England’s greatest need when they will have to rise up and fight the final battle against evil. So that’s a more passive version of the story. Someone goes in and finds these sleeping warriors. That’s the personal power, that’s the higher self that will arise when you need it most.

Wilson has a dark side version of this exact legend at the end of Illuminatus with the undead Nazi battalions awaiting their orders to rise from Lake Totenkopf and reclaim The World!

Let Us Embrace at Last




Put your arm around me, laugh like I just said Something Funny.

••••

Kiss Me — Physical Intimacy in Public makes People feel Uncomfortable — Kiss Me.

•••••

FRED :
D’you think They bought it?

ANGEL :
(stunned, gobsmacked and breathless)
.....I bought it

Count Dracula...
Have you eaten?

I've worked up an appetite.
Good thing there are Two of You.

No.
Under NO circumstances are there Two of Us.

Take Mina, lose me.
I know you don't like to drink The Blood of The Dead.

You'd die to save this terrified
Child?

I'd die to save ANY Terrified Child.


Why?

Because I am Not Like You.
There's a Nobler Purpose to My Life than simply prolonging it.

Settle for Her, or Take Me
and LEARN Something.

MINA WHIMPERS

Run.
Go! Now!
Agatha Van Helsing, I am Going to Make You LAST.
You'll be Part of Me.
You'll travel to The New World
in My Veins.


Come, Boy. Suckle.


On Your Knees


There's a Mystery Behind the Act of Kneeling | THE KNEELING GOD

Friday, 20 November 2020

THE AEON OF MA'AT



If The Wise Man,
The Old Man of The Mountain is a Monk, then -- 
The Wise Woman of The Mountain must be a Nun.

A Hidden Princess.

A Dark Sheriff.


A Secret Sister.





Clarisse
fem. proper name, often a diminutive of Clara and its relatives. Also, "a nun of the order of St. Clare" (1790s); the Franciscan order also known as the Poor Clares (c. 1600).



The Word “Remember” is extremely important....

Almost Famous - "Starway to Heaven" Deleted Scene

 

 

“Lenina Crowne has a really hard time in the book , as she is always being slapped around by a sociopathic, Shakespeare-quoting, sex-negative John the Savage. 


So, the notion was — let’s do something more modern and radical. 

In terms of my magical practice, this ties Brave New World to my thoughts about the Aeon of Ma’at, the Goddess of Truth, Balance and Harmony.


In the book, Lenina is treated quiet badly and comes to a grim end, so I thought let’s make her the central character of this new version. 


The Savage Lands depicts a childlike level of society; John is tied to his mother and has very little agency. 


The World State has progressed to teenage; with its non-stop music and parties and strict social demarcation into easily-identifiable ‘Tribes’


The idea was to have Lenina begin to work with the Indra to build a truly ‘adult’ Utopia… which would lead us into season 2…

I’ve seen critics complain about the Brave New World sex scenes not being sexy but that was the point we were making! 


There’s even a major scene of intimacy between John and Lenina that deliberately exists in contrast to the shallow hedonism of the orgies. 

In This World, sex is more like a social duty, or it’s like Sport. 

It doesn’t involve the Guilt and the excitement, the Transgression and the Passion that we associate with sex at all.

 

Speaking of this new myth and ethos, for a few years now you have been speaking about the Aeon of Ma’at. Is this the strongest current you see in humanity these days?

GM: It’s still a subcurrent at the moment, as the patriarchal Aeon of Osiris bows out kicking and screaming but I think it’s the only one that gives us any chance of Survival right now. It’s not like this is the dawning of the age of Aquarius. 

For me these ideas are interesting metaphors; they’re filters, and I find that if I apply this particular filter suggested by Kenneth Grant and Crowley it allows me to see things in a different relationship, which is very creatively rewarding if nothing else.  

Viewing The World through the filter of these Thelemic notions, what’s happening right now all around us suddenly becomes not only obvious but almost predictable.  

It’s important to emphasize that this is not something to ‘believe’ in. This is a metaphor and not a belief system. 

But new metaphors can change whole cultures as we know from Our History.


Crowley said that the general tenor of the last six thousand years of human civilization could be summed up by the personalities of a family of Egyptian gods. 

And the first two thousand years up to the birth of Christ, this was the Age of Isis, The Mother Goddess, where people were hunter/gatherers or early agrarians living off The Land, relying on ‘Mother Earth’, the seasons and the tides. 


So, the next Aeon from Christ onward is The Aeon of Osiris, The Dying and Resurrected God. Osiris is also The Law Giver and He brings with Him The Written Word, so now Ideas can be enshrined in books and books can outlast generations and they take on the aura of Gods Themselves.

God Himself is present in the works of The Bible. 

God Himself is present in The Quran. 

So certainly, there’s this programming code language, the instructional Dad Language, which can take people over just from reading a book and turn them into Agents of The Dad God’s Expansionist, Controlling Agenda. 


This is when Nature goes from Provider to something that exists to be tamed and exploited. That’s The Aeon of Osiris.


Following Osiris, comes this fiery breakdown, the child Horus is the son of Osiris and he’s every jihadi, every warrior, every rock star reformer, every young man who sees as his sacred mission the tearing down of structures, the questioning of rules. It’s punk rock, “I gotta tear it all down.” But running in tandem with that, according to Kenneth Grant, is the shadow Aeon of Ma’at, Horus’ sister and she’s the goddess of truth and balance and harmony and all that Wonder Woman stuff.

For me, having gone through the Abyss of Da’ath in the Thelema structure of initiation — having undergone that in a really experiential and exhausting way, I found myself in the Qabbalistic sphere of Binah, and The Entire World suddenly looked very different and made sense in different configurations which re-energized the work I’d been doing.  

So, I decided to accept that The Aeon of Ma’at was coming down fast and I tried to align all my thinking with that, which provided me with a new bunch of metaphors and ways of framing the world. 

Imagine all this division and deconstruction was just a corridor we’re passing through. All the fractioning and separation —that’s typical of Horus. We can see the hand of Horus in the modern-day tearing down of monuments and statues. He’s kicking The Fuck out of formerly stable systems all around the world. That’s exactly what you would expect of this spirit that Crowley said manifested first in 1913. But for me, I think he made his presence felt quite clearly on 9/11.


You can easily organize The Evidence to suggest that there is an Aeon of Horus occurring now. Where Systems are being taken-down, where everything’s being Questioned and Audited, and The Past is subject to Major Revision. 


So, there’s also some fun to be had in thinking “Ok, if this is actually playing out in some symbolic fashion, then what might the Aeon of Ma’at look like, artistically?’

And to me it looks like the rise of marginalized voices, it looks like more women coming into the discourse. It looks like trans people coming into the discourse. It looks like all the opportunities for groups who were disempowered by the Patriarchy, who couldn’t speak before to have their say.

Ma’atWhat would her signature disease be? Well it might be a distributed network, a viral malady that could attack All of Humanity. What would happen if She emptied The Houses of The Old Gods as a Show of Possibility? 

You remember at the height of the first lockdown, all the churches were empty, all the sports stadiums were empty, all the mosques were empty, all the temples were empty. So, the Dad god had nowhere to go.


In Britain, I know, and I’m sure in America, there was a strange uprising of praise for care workers. People would go out every Thursday here and bang on pots and pans and basically thank the nurturing spirt, this caring spirit, for its very existence. It was a very religious, ritualistic thing that we were all doing. That’s Ma’at right there. 


Then there’s Mother Nature with hurricanes tearing down borders, storms ravaging everyone’s homes. It all suddenly makes sense in a new context if you use the filter of Ma’at to look at The World. 

For me, I’ve found some creative applications for it, like in Brave New World and the Wonder Woman comic that I’ve done.


Let’s talk about Magick. How does one get better at it?

GM: By doing it on a regular basis! It’s like a martial art or a musical talent. 

If you dedicate yourself to Learning and Practice, if you read other magician’s accounts, if you Pay Attention, then you start to notice details that the less engaged will miss and this allows you to do things that other people may regard as magical or even supernatural. 


Just like a stage conjurer, or a great guitarist, or a gifted actor or artist can do. It’s just about really paying attention and Doing The Work to see What Happens. 

It’s just a way of looking at things in a fresh light and then working with this augmented version of reality in ways that can appear supernatural. 


One of Magic’s main attractions involves bringing things Into Being, from the conception or thought all the way to solid materiality. 

Making The Insubstantial tangible.


But there’s also a whole other thing. Magic is about deliberately inducing unusual states of consciousness. Some of these states of consciousness have been called Gods because they feel Super Organized and Positive, and some of them can be called Demons because they feel Chaotic, Violent, Hateful and Perverted or whatever. 

That’s part of Magic. 

It’s as simple as how can you create different states of consciousness? 

Magic uses spells or rituals, some developed over many centuries, to stimulate specific focused states of consciousness, whether demonic or angelic or god like. 

Psychedelics and hallucinogens have been used by shamans for the same purpose.


And the written word along with the expression of it are all magic. In the sense that words themselves hold such tremendous power.

GM: If you can limit the language you can reduce the scope of a conjuror. George Orwell warns us about that in the appendices to 1984. 


If you restrict the language, if you make it impossible to express abstract ideas, then you put boundaries on people’s ability to think creatively or communicate certain concepts. 

It Does Work. Words shouldn’t have the kind of power and meaning that we attribute to them but most of us grew up in The Aeon of Osiris, where words have been really important and fundamental to human progress. 

Words mean The Law, words mean The Bible, or The Constitution, words define The Divine Rules by which we abide. The 10 Commandments.


As any writer can tell you; words are just things that dance around when you play with them. They can mean all kinds of different things. 

They bring with them the distortions of interpretation where the words of Christ – ‘love your enemies’ – can be twisted to motivate bloody genocidal Crusades. I think Wilson was trying to undermine people’s fear of the perceived authority and power of words as things in themselves.


For sure. There are some big words that have been added to the dictionary over the last 20 years, specifically Beyonce’s ‘bootylicious.’

GM: Well exactly, there you go man. But still I don’t exactly know what it’s describing, but I can almost taste it!

Adding on the to the notion of words and symbols being charged with magic, they have also been charged through the increasing amounts of propaganda over the course of the 20th Century and into today. Isn’t that something that RAW is constantly reminding readers, that propaganda is real, and lots of it feeds off your base emotions, like anger and fear. Most people don’t recognize that cuz they haven’t seen the FNORDS!

GM: It’s more like people’s sense of the immense energy compressed into certain words. It’s not the word itself – as Wilson reminds us ‘fuck’ is a ‘bad’ word but it doesn’t sound much different from ‘folk’, a ‘good’ word, and it means the same as ‘coitus’, another ‘good’ word. So where exactly does the wickedness and dirtiness of ‘fuck’ reside?

Words become fetishized for reasons good or bad and the more fetishized they are, the more taboo they become, which confers an aura of outlaw sexiness that attracts some people to them.

Lenny Bruce, George Carlin, Bob Wilson himself, all made a point of saying that words should not be given this kind of power because once they have this power, they can become fetishized and weaponized. If you de-power a word then it can’t be used to trigger other people in the same reliable way, but we’re just not in that phase, with the dislocated politics of culture right now. I think people got it right to take down some of these structures right now and perhaps it’s okay to retire certain radioactive, abusive terms as long as we make sure we’re creating new words in other areas.

As a for instance, when I was a kid there were no words to describe certain aspects of my own experience. I’ve been non-binary, cross-dressing, ‘gender queer’ since I was 10 years old, but the available terms for what I was doing and how I felt were few and far between. We had ‘transsexual’ and ‘transvestite’ both of which sounded like DSM classifications rather than lifestyle choices! I didn’t want to be labelled as medical aberration because that’s not how it felt, nor was it something cut-and-dried and done. I didn’t want to ‘transition’ or embody my ‘female’ side exclusively, so I had no idea where I fit in.

Terms like ‘genderqueer’ and ‘non-binary’ only came into vogue in the mid-90s. So kids like me had very limited ways of describing our attraction to drag and sexual ambiguity. Nowadays there’s this whole new vocabulary, allowing kids to figure out exactly where they sit on the ‘color wheel’ of gender and sexuality, so I think it’s OK to lose a few contentious words when you are creating new ones that offer a more finely-grained approach to experience.

When we make the jump to a non-Roman-alphabet-based emoji language for purposes of radio telepathic communication, things will change once more.

This conversation of neutralizing the charge from taboo words is also a premise of RAW’s Ishtar Rising, which you wrote the introduction of the newest reprinting of the book by Hilaritas Press. Also, in that book, Wilson explores the mythical trope of the underground journey, something explored and unpacked in nearly all his books.

Joseph Campbell has some cool stuff to say about the Underground Journey, mainly that in all his studies of world myths he had observed two types of underground journey stories. One type was when the underground swallows up a poor soul like the whale did to Jonah. When this happens, the sole purpose of the seeker is to just survive the ordeal and return to the surface in one piece. The second type of journey through the underground occurs when the hero or heroine must descend into the depths and kill a monster. Campbell mentions one myth where the hero must slay a dragon then drink its blood to gain its power and move on and continue their quest. Campbell associates this killing of the dragon and drinking its blood as an integration of our shadows into our psyches. By integrating these elements of ourselves we then gain the sort of personal power needed to live a joyful and energetically engaged life.


GM: Yeah, and the story of the underground journey in Britain often involves someone finding a cave where he sees all of King Arthur’s knights asleep just waiting for the time of England’s greatest need when they will have to rise up and fight the final battle against evil. So that’s a more passive version of the story. Someone goes in and finds these sleeping warriors. That’s the personal power, that’s the higher self that will arise when you need it most.

Wilson has a dark side version of this exact legend at the end of Illuminatus with the undead Nazi battalions awaiting their orders to rise from Lake Totenkopf and reclaim the world!

What advice do you have for the magicians out there who have a story to tell and want to storm the reality studio?

GM: Tell a different story. Tell a fresh story that speaks to its times and the people around you. A story that offers possibilities, exit strategies, rather than apocalypse and ruin. I can’t see that there’s anything else…

In the Wonder Woman book I’m doing, for instance, I’ve actively avoided writing the boy hero story that’s so ubiquitous as to seem inescapable —  the familiar story of the One, the champion, the Joseph Campbell monomyth thing that drives so many Hollywood movies and YA stories. We’ve seen it. The Lion King. The callow youth loses mom or dad, or his comfortable place in the tribe, and he has to fight his way back to save the kingdom from its corrupt old leader, before claiming the captive princess and becoming the new king and… ad infinitum. The Circle of Life if it only applied to boys. I thought, where is the mythic heroine’s story? In Ishtar Rising, Wilson talks about the myth of Inanna, and how she goes down into Hell and has to give up everything of herself to gain the wisdom and experience she can bring back to her tribe. Privileging the network rather than the sovereign individual.

And so, as I thought about the differences between the hero’s and the heroine’s journey, it gave me a bunch of different modes to work in. Finding ways to avoid telling the boy hero story again was quite liberating. It just gave me a bunch of new ideas, an interesting new way of telling stories that didn’t rely on the framework of the hero’s journey that Campbell talks about.

Playing the devil’s advocate here. Today there is a lot of fervor around identity, and there is one strong of thought that people can never truly understand what it is like walking in the shoes of others. Some may ask why a white man would seek to tell the story of a woman, from her perspective, instead of just sticking to what he knows, being a man.

How authentically real is that character or story, etc.?


GM: It’s important to air these feelings for debate. I must admit, with all respect, that I completely disagree with the idea that we cannot understand one another.

Firstly, there’s a major obvious problem about coming at things from this perspective — if fundamentally, we cannot truly know or have any meaningful opinion on what it feels like to be X, then we may as well stop listening to anything anyone else has to say about their personal experience, on the basis that it can only be irrelevant to our specific lives!

If I can never truly understand you without walking in your shoes and vice versa, what’s the point of listening or talking to anyone about our experience? What’s the point of writing stories, or protesting, or making art if experience cannot by its nature be communicated and understood by anyone who has not shared the experience of the artist, or the writer?

I think we all know it doesn’t really work that way in the real world. We don’t need to be a thing to have some understanding of how it operates. People can be great veterinarians without personally experiencing the day-to-day inner lives of dogs and cats. I can read Solzhenitsyn and shed empathic tears for the inmates of the Gulag without having to reprise their exact experience.

To think otherwise might be, I suspect, a symptom of narcissism painted into its inevitable corner, its private echo chamber – destructive, divided, atomized, individualistic to the point of self-abnegation – and indicative of late stage Osiris pathology.

And you know, we actually do understand one another in so many ways. We can imagine what it’s like to live someone else’s life –— or we can have our imaginations enflamed by well-told tales of other people’s lives and thrill to the ways they resonate exactly with our own lived experience. As a writer, I know this to be true.

We’ve been observing one another’s behavior and drawing conclusions since the dawn of humanity. People aren’t so complicated or new that the basic functions remain a mystery. All our plays, poems, songs and stories are a record of our attempts to understand ourselves and one another. The fact that Greek drama or Shakespeare still speaks to us is evidence that basic human nature has remained fairly consistent for thousands of years.

We figured one another out a long, long time ago.

And ultimately, I’ll say again, we are all the same organism. What we’re seeing is ring fingers fighting with thumbs, eyelashes screaming that eyebrows can never understand them! To point that out is probably an anathema in this current time of narcissistic inflation but it will be understood as a fact of nature in the end.

Maybe I’m wrong and we’re all fucked because humans are a kind of cancer-creature and our only purpose is to destroy each other and all other lifeforms on our planet… there’s still time for Agent Smith to be proved right!

I think everyone should have to imagine what it’s like to be someone else. We can all learn from one other but that means communicating; that means starting with the assumption we do have a common basis for genuine understanding even if our specific circumstances can never be repeated or totally understood by anyone other than ourselves. We all hurt, we all feel joy, we all get turned on, or scared. We all experience loss, and lack of self-worth and feel badly treated by the world at times.

And I understand why everyone should talk and tell stories from their own position you know but it’s also very useful – and a major human talent –  to imagine how other people feel and consider how the world might look through their eyes.  

And you do that by staying informed, listening to voices even when you disagree with them –—and by employing empathy and imagination to put yourself in their place as best as you’re able.

These are difficult times. I’m not a guru. I don’t know what to say to make it all better. There’s seven in a half billion people and it often seems they all fucking hate each other! Yet they all want everyone else to agree with their tiny, restricted, localized points of view. And they’ve all got a piece of ground to defend against perceived foes. I get it, but ultimately, we’re all one thing, one massive organism that’s going through difficult growing pains at the moment, so maybe we need to start thinking about what makes us alike, rather than different.

I hope so

GM: Well, this is part of the boiling process. Capitalist consumer culture has clearly reached its limits and we either advance to a more efficient, stable, less suicidal and aggressive engagement with other people and our environment or we go extinct as a species, taking all the whales and tigers and gorillas with us, before we even figured out how to talk to them and hear their stories! There are few options remaining.

The current questioning, the judgmental audit of where we are and how we got here, is a Horus thing. We can only hope we sublimate from here via Ma’at into something more nurturing and sustainable.

It is a hot moment. Temperatures are rising, Artic ice caps are melting at an alarming rate, and people may be unconsciously registering all that, and doing a horrible job at it. Instead of dealing with one’s own sense of panic, constriction, and fear it looks like many people are just running hot.

GM: I feel like every word we say is now a potential indictment, you know. The last malignant thrashing of the passing Aeon of Osiris. The echoes of the Inquisition, accusations of ‘wrongthink’, the return of Original Sin, the demonic glee taken in any stumble or falter from the approved path seems almost mediaeval. It’s terrifying. The potential for misunderstanding is almost infinite and its almost fated that we will struggle to abide by rules that grow ever more authoritarian and specific every day. Again, all that feels to me like the last ferocious attempts at asserting its fading power by the Osiris energy of the last 2000 years, now gone rotten and unsustainable but trying harder to keep everything and everybody under increasingly deranged levels of control in every area of our lives.

Writers and artists can find more reasons to stop their expression than ever before it seems. The voice of criticism and judgement is easier to find these days, just doom scroll through various social media sites and it’s all over the place.

GM: I regard it all as new input. As tough as it is, there’s an excitement. It’s making me think, it’s making me question myself and my assumptions, it’s making me write different things. I love ideas that challenge my thinking — even if I don’t agree with them in the end.

 

What are your thoughts on Simulation Theory these days?

GM: I was reading New Scientist recently and one of the correspondents on the letters page threw out this random idea that really resonated with me.  The writer was saying that if we live in a simulation then perhaps the world in the past was not as detailed or as high fidelity as it we experience it now! There have been upgrades, developments. In computer game terms, think of the difference between Space Invaders and Red Dead Redemption 2!

And I thought, wow, wouldn’t that be funny if, you know, those medieval painters with the flat landscapes and no perspective, what if they were accurately representing an earlier, more simplistic iteration of our simulated reality? What if they were simply portraying what the world actually looked like in the early stages of the simulation! What if these artists were recording what they saw and that’s how it looked?

Suddenly I saw the history of art in a whole new light! I thought how cool it would be if the cave paintings at Lascaux represented caveman reality perfectly – that’s how the simulated world really looked in an early development of the simulation when we were all just stick figures with antlers and the animals were sketchy semi-abstracts…

I love that idea; that the simulation is becoming more complex and well-rendered as it goes along – and we can see where it’s been.

It almost seems like it will become harder to break the Matrix as it becomes more refined, nuanced and easier to mistake for reality. It is interesting looking at the Simulation theory with the idea of calling it a metaphor for the same thing that the Gnostics came up with.

GM: Yeah, the idea that the universe is a counterfeit created not by god but by some sort of underling of god… that was the gnostic idea. It’s not so much about breaking the Matrix, I feel it’s more about learning to work with it. In the movie, once Neo figures out how it works, he becomes a magician, a superhero. The counterfeit world in the movie seems much more fun than the real one.

 Can magic be a useful tool for navigating VR and AR in IRL?


GM: Yeah, because magic is just about adding meaning or enchantment to the environment and to your life. Magic spices up everything; it’s like hot sauce! Once you add magic, the universe comes to life and starts to dance with you. If you choose to be an exploiter, a black magician, it’s more like a lap dance but otherwise it’s a tango! As I’ve said before, it’s easy to add magic to things. If you decide a certain stone could use some magic power, then carry it with you long enough and it will become first a good luck talisman and will finally accrue the significance and meaning of a Holy Grail if it’s given enough time and attention. So, the more meaning you can add to experience, the more magical it will seem. It’s not difficult or ‘occult’ at all. Magic makes everything more exciting, rich and alive and that’s its job. The more magic you can create around something the more special your interaction with it will feel.

FRITZ






Fritz
German familiar form of masc. proper name Friedrich; as a characteristic name for a German attested by 1883; very common in World War I. Phrase on the fritz "inoperative, not working properly" (1903) is American English slang, of unknown connection to the name; the earliest references suggest a theatrical origin.

This is You

Bill Murray gives a surprising 
and meaningful answer you might not expect.

Dracula :
I am afraid I do not possess such a thing.

Dracula’s Friend :
You don't have any mirrors?

Dracula :
(SIGHS)
Baubles of Vanity.

What is The Purpose of a Mirror Hm?

One will find no Enlightenment in One's Own Gaze.

[ Well, no —not for as long as you Think That You are Right (always), and remained convinced of your own Grandeur and Majesty, you will find consequently  discover just how you can’t even  stand to Look at Yourself. ]


"I'd like to just Be More Here, all the time -- 
and I'd like to see What I Could Get Done...
What I Could Do, if I really didn't cloud myself with automatic....
Y'know - if I were able to Not Get Distracted -- 
To Not Change Channels in My Mind and Body, so I were just-- Y'know, 'I'm My Own Champ.'

Y'know, if I was always Here -- and always With You.
Like you could look at me and go, 
'Okay, He's There. There's Someone There.'

You know how (sometimes) when you Look in The Mirror -- You don't THINK about it,
but sometimes you just go 'Oh - There's that Guy'
and You CATCH Yourself -- you know, The State You Were In, when you looked in The Mirror.

And you can kind of, Make a Face, or Toughen Yourself Up, or whatever --

But when you Catch Yourself in That Mirror, You SEE The State You're In --
I mean, are you Happy, are you Sad, are you Confident, are you Rosey, Big-Earred -- 
Are You Here?

And MOST of The Time, You're NOT -- it's like, you almost want to Look Away 'coz it's like
"That's Not Me, There -- That's
What I'm Doing, Right Now."




That’s  Me — There I am.




Here We are, Born to Be Kings,
We're The Princes of The Universe :
Here We Belong -- Fighting to Survive
In a World with The Darkest Powers
Heh

And Here We are, We're The Princes of The Universe
Here We Belong -- Fighting for Survival
We've come to be The Rulers of You all
I am Immortal, I Have inside Me Blood of Kings, yeah, yeah
I Have No Rival, No Man can be My Equal
Take Me to The Future of You all --
Born to be Kings, Princes of The Universe
Fighting and Free
Got Your World in My Hand
I'm Here for Your Love and I'll MAKE My Stand
We were Born to be Princes of The Universe
No Man could understand
My Power is in My Own Hand

Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, people talk about you
People Say You've had Your Day
I'm a Man that Will Go Far

Fly The Moon and reach for The Stars
With My Sword and Head held high
Got to pass The Test first time, yeah

I know that people talk about me, I hear it every day
But I can prove them wrong 'cause I'm right first time

Yeah, yeah
Alright, let's go, let's go, ha ha
Yeah, watch this man fly, wooh
Bring on the girls, c'mon, c'mon, c'mon
Here we are (here we are)
Born to be kings, we're the princes of the universe
Here we belong
Born to be kings, princes of the universe
Fighting and free, got your world in my hand
I'm here for your love and I'll make my stand
We were born to be princes of the universe (universe, universe, universe)


Tuesday, 17 November 2020

GIRLISH














"It Doesn't Kill You. 

What it Does, is make you feel like you're in A Noisy Little Dark Room... Naked and Ashamed... and there are Things in The Dark that need to HURT you because you're BAD... Little Pinching Things that go in your ears and crawl on the inside of your skull. 

And you know that if The Noise and The Crawling would stop... that you could remember How to Get Out... 

But You NEVER WILL."


— Glory describing the effects of her brain suck to Tara, 
Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Monday, 16 November 2020

What Books?



“We clearly care about The Same Truth, You and I.”





“And instantly they stand together in an immense solitude. Lovers seek for privacy. Friends find this solitude about them, this barrier between them and The Herd, whether they want it OR NOT. They would be glad to reduce it. The first two would be glad to find a third. 

In our own time Friendship arises in the same way. For us of course the shared activity and therefore the companionship on which Friendship supervenes will not often be a bodily one like hunting or fighting. 

It may be a common religion, common studies, a common profession, even a common recreation. All who share it will be our companions; but one or two or three who share something more will be our Friends. In this kind of love, as Emerson said, Do you love me? means ‘Do you SEE The Same Truth?’ — Or at least, “Do you CARE about The Same Truth?” 




The Man who agrees with us that some question, little regarded by others, is of Great Importance, can be our Friend. He need not AGREE with us about The ANSWER. 


That is why those pathetic people who simply “want friends” can never make any. 

The very condition of having Friends is that we should want Something Else •besides• Friends. 

Where The Truthful Answer to the Question 

‘Do you see The Same Truth’ 

would be 

“I see nothing and I don’t care about The Truth; I only want a Friend”, 


no Friendship can arise — though Affection of course may

There would be nothing for the Friendship to be about; and Friendship must be •about• something, even if it were only an enthusiasm for dominoes or white mice. 

Those who have Nothing can Share Nothing; 
Those who are Going Nowhere can have no Fellow-Travellers.”

Think Fast, Caped Crusader.




It’s not only The Joker who specialises in poisoning with his own signature chemical toxin but a number of Batman’s other chemically-altered or drug-crazed members of his Rogues’ Gallery, most notably The Scarecrow (who uses his gas compound to inflict mortifying, soul-trembling Fear, Bane (who juices himself with the fast-acting military-grade Super Steroid, Venom before engaging a foe in single combat),and Dr. Hugo Strange (who pionneered his use of a hormonal serum that causes men to permanently mutate into a viscious but servile brutish form of Giant Statue, which he dubbed Monster Men.)

Batman is GOOD at coping with exotic, mind altering poisons and chemicals, both mentally, psychologically  and physiologically — he gets them thrown all over him, A LOT, he always has done, and he has become an expert at recognizing the effects, coping with and/of completely dismissing or disregarding them and counteracting them, either through physical action, mental discipline, physical tolerance or through the isolation and synthesis of a specific antidote.

He can think his way out of almost any trap, get back on his feet, walk it off, and get himself to the Help he needs or the facilities and resources whe will needs in order to stay alive, wake up and save himself.


Think Fast, Caped Crusader —





The Sacred Masculine is Dynamic, Forward-Moving Energy.
....occasionally moving in fast, tight circles when it HAS to (as in a Grave or Locked Box).

A Person who becomes Fatigued when Unhappy is Useless.

“I need you to get me out.

Alfred is ALIVE.

And Alfred is on MY Side.

I Need Your Help.

If I die, we BOTH die.

If I LIVE, you live on in My Memory.

You Know Me now as well as ANYONE.

I’ll FIND The Men Who Killed You.

Need a Jolt to Get You Moving...?"





“...it is said that much Sake, Self-Pride and Luxury are to be avoided by a samurai.

There is no cause for anxiety when you are unhappy, but when you become a little elated, these three things become dangerous. Look at The Human Condition. It is unseemly for a person to become Prideful and Extravagant when things are going well

Therefore, it is better to have some Unhappiness while one is still Young, for if a person does not experience some Bitterness, his disposition will not settle down. 

A Person who becomes Fatigued when Unhappy is Useless.”






Ketamine hydrochloride, also known as Special K, Kit-Kat, or simply K, belongs to a class of drugs called dissociative anesthetics. These drugs, which also include nitrous oxide and phencyclidine (PCP), separate perception from sensation.

Ketamine was created to be an anesthetic. Doctors still use it for general anesthesia in certain circumstances. The Food and Drug Administration (FDA) [Trusted Source] also recently approved a nearly identical drug, esketamine, for treatment-resistant depression.

People also use it recreationally for the floaty effect it provides in small doses.

In higher doses, it can produce dissociative and hallucinogenic effects, which are collectively called a K-hole or K-holing.

Sometimes, these effects can occur in smaller doses, too, even if taken as prescribed.




What does it feel like?

People describe a K-hole as an out-of-body experience. It’s an intense sensation of being separate from your body.

Some say it feels as if they’re rising above their body. Others describe it as being teleported to other places, or having sensations of “melting” into their surroundings.

For some, the K-hole experience is enjoyable. Others find it frightening and compare it to a near-death experience.

Several things can affect how you experience a K-hole, including how much you take, whether you mix it with alcohol or other substances, and your surroundings.

Generally, the psychological effects of a K-hole can include:

feelings of detachment or disassociation from yourself and your surroundings

panic and anxiety

hallucinations

paranoia

changes in sensory perception, like sights, sound, and time

confusion

disorientation

The physical effects can be pretty unnerving to some people, too. 

When you’re in a K-hole, numbness can make it difficult, if not impossible, to speak or move

Not everyone enjoys this feeling of helplessness.

Other physical effects can include:

dizziness
nausea
uncoordinated movement
changes in blood pressure and heart rate

Everyone is different, so it’s impossible to predict how the experience will go down for a person.

When do the effects set in?

How fast it kicks in depends on how you use it. It’s most often found in powder form and snorted. It can also be taken orally or injected into muscle tissue.

TIMELINE OF EFFECTS

Generally, the effects of ketamine kick in within:

30 seconds to 1 minute if injected
5 to 10 minutes if snorted
20 minutes if ingested

Remember, everyone reacts differently. You may feel the effects sooner or later than others.


How long can it last?

The effects of ketamine typically last 45 to 90 minutes depending on the dose. For some people, effects can last for several hours or even days, according to the National Institute on Drug Abuse (NIDA).


Why does it happen?
Ketamine blocks glutamate, a neurotransmitter in your brain. 

In turn, this blocks signals between your conscious mind to other parts of your brain. That results in the dissociative feeling of being separate from yourself and your environment.


Are there any risks involved?
Using ketamine or entering a K-hole does come with risks, some of them serious.

Keep in mind that not everyone has a good experience with ketamine, even in low doses or when taken as prescribed by a doctor. And having a bad experience can involve some pretty uncomfortable physical and mental symptoms.

These can include:

paranoia
extreme panic
hallucinations
short-term memory loss

When used in higher doses or frequently, risks include:

vomiting
long-term memory problems
addiction
urinary problems, including cystitis and kidney failure
liver failure
slow heart rate
slow breathing
death by overdose

Being in a K-hole also carries risk. When you’re in a K-hole, you may be unable to move or speak. If you do try to move, the numbness may cause you to fall, and that can injure yourself or someone else.

Entering a K-hole can also cause a person to become violently agitated, putting themselves and others at risk for harm.

Also, while you’re in a K-hole, people around you may not be able to tell if you’re in distress and in need of help.

Is there any way to do it safely?

Not really. There’s no way to guarantee having a perfectly safe experience with ketamine if you’re using it outside of doctor supervision. And compared with some other drugs, ketamine’s effects can be extremely unpredictable.

Harm reduction tips

Again, there’s no truly safe way to recreationally use ketamine or enter a K-hole. But if you’re going to use it, these tips might help you avoid or minimize certain risks:

Know what you’re taking. Ketamine is a controlled substance that can be difficult to get. As a result, there’s a chance that what you believe is ketamine is actually a counterfeit drug that contains other substances. Drug-testing kits can confirm what’s in the pill or powder.

Don’t eat for an hour or two before taking it. Nausea is a fairly common side effect of ketamine, and vomiting is possible. This can be dangerous if you’re unable to move or ensure you’re sitting upright. Avoid eating for 1 1/2 to 2 hours beforehand to reduce symptoms.

Start with a low dose. You can’t predict how a drug will affect you. Start with the lowest dose possible to minimize your risk for a potentially dangerous reaction. Also, resist the urge to dose again until you’ve given the drug plenty of time to kick in.

Don’t use it regularly. Ketamine carries a high risk of dependence and addiction (more on this later).

Choose a safe setting. High doses or being in a K-hole can cause confusion and make it difficult for you to move or communicate, putting you in a vulnerable position. For this reason, ketamine is often used as a date rape drug. If you do use it, be sure you’re in a safe and familiar place.

Don’t do it alone. No one can predict how a drug will affect them, even if they’ve taken it before. Have a friend with you. Ideally, this person won’t be using ketamine with you but is familiar with its effects.

Practice safe hygiene. Good hygiene is important for reducing the risk of infection or injury. If snorting ketamine, do it on a clean surface with something sterile (i.e., not a rolled-up dollar bill). Rinse your nose with water when you’re done. If injecting ketamine, use a new, sterile needle, and don’t ever share needles. Sharing needles puts you at risk for hepatitis B and C and HIV.

Don’t mix it. Taking ketamine with alcohol, other recreational drugs, or prescription medications can cause dangerous interactions. If you’re going to use ketamine, avoid mixing it with other substances. If you take prescription medications, it’s best to avoid using ketamine entirely.

Take care of yourself after. The major effects of ketamine may wear off quickly, but everyone’s different. Some people experience subtle effects for hours or days after taking it. Eating well, staying hydrated, and getting exercise can help you feel better.

Healthline does not endorse the use of any illegal substances, and we recognize abstaining from them is always the safest approach.

However, we believe in providing accessible and accurate information to reduce the harm that can occur when using. If you or someone you know might be struggling with substance use, we recommend learning more and consulting a professional to get additional support.

How do I recognize an overdose?

Being in a K-hole is an intense experience. You might mistake some of those intense sensations for an overdose. Knowing the signs and symptoms of overdose is important so you know when you or someone else needs help.

KETAMINE OVERDOSE SIGNS AND SYMPTOMS

Seek immediate help if you or someone else is experiencing:

vomiting
irregular heartbeat
high blood pressure
slow or diminished breathing
chest pain
hallucinations
loss of consciousness

If you’re unsure whether the symptoms are those of a K-hole or an overdose, err on the side of caution.

Call 911 or your local emergency services. Make sure you tell them that ketamine was taken. Keeping this information from the emergency responders could prevent someone from getting the care they need, resulting in long-term damage or even death.


I’m concerned about my use — how can I get help?

Ketamine has a high potential for dependence and addiction, especially when used in high doses or frequently.

Here are some signs that ketamine use might be developing from a dependence into an addiction:

You need a higher dose to get the effect you were getting before.

You can’t stop taking it even though it’s negatively affecting your life, like with work, relationships, or finances.

You use it as a way to cope with feelings of unhappiness or stress.

You have cravings for the drug and its effects.

You experience withdrawal symptoms when you go without it, like feeling rundown or shaky.

If you’re worried about your ketamine use, you have a few options for getting support:

Talk to your primary healthcare provider. Be open and honest with them about your ketamine use. Patient confidentiality laws prevent them from reporting this information to law

THE PROBLEM



“It’s is NOT that The Emperor has No Clothes — it’s that he has No BRAINS, and we’re all too afraid to SAY it!”

— John Judge 

I Want to Believe That  :
The Dead Are Not Lost to Us; 
That They Speak to Us as Part of Something Greater Than Us —
Greater Than Any Alien Force.

and if You and I are powerless now,
I Want to Believe That :
If We •LISTEN• to What is •SPEAKING• —
It can give us The Power to Save OURSELVES.