Wednesday, 24 December 2025
Thursday, 18 December 2025
Ian Marter
This is Our Concern, Dude.
Friday, 12 December 2025
Your Own Death and How To Cope With It
Your own death and how to cope with it
ONE
It was all very well receiving a five-page booklet entitled : Your Own Death and How To Cope With It. It was all very well attending counselling sessions with The Ship's Metaphysical-psychiatrist, and being told about The Nature of Being and Non-Being, and some other gunk about this guy who was in A Cave, but didn't know it was A Cave until he left. The thing was, Saunders was An Engineer, not A Philosopher - and the way he saw it, You were either Dead or You were Alive. And if you were Dead, you shouldn't be forced to fill in endless incomprehensible forms, and other related nonsensica.
You shouldn't have to return your birth certificate, to have it invalidated. You shouldn't have to send off your completed Death certificate, accompanied by a passport-size photograph of your corpse, signed on the back by your coroner.
When you're Dead, you should be Dead. The bastards should leave you alone.
If Saunders could have picked something up, he would have picked something up and hurled it across the grey metal room. But he couldn't.
Saunders was a hologram. He was just a computer generated simulation of his former self., he couldn't actually touch anything, except for his own hologramatic body. He was a phantom made of light. A software ghost.
Quite honestly, he'd had enough.
Saunders got up, walked silently across the metal-grilled floor of his sleeping quarters and stared out of the viewport window.
Far away to his right was the bright multi-coloured ball of Saturn, captured by its rainbow rings like a prize in a gigantic stellar hoop-la game. Twelve miles below him, under the plexiglass dome of the terraformed colony of Mimas, half the ship's crew were on planet leave.
No planet leave for Saunders.
No R & R for the dead.
He caressed his eyelids with the rough balls of his fingers, then glanced back at the pile: the mind-bogglingly complicated Hologramatic Status application form; accident claims; pension funds; bank transfers; house deeds. They all had to be completed so his wife, Carole - no, his widow, Carole - could start a new life without him.
When he'd first signed up, they both understood he would be away from Earth for months on end, and, obviously, things could happen; mining in space was dangerous. That was why the money was so good.
'If anything happens to me,' he'd always said, 'I don't want you to sit around, mourning.' Protests. 'I want you to meet someone else, someone terrific, and start a new life without me.
What a stupid, fat, dumb thing to say! The kind of stupid, fat, dumb thing only a living person would ever dream of saying.
Because that's what she was going to do now.
Start a new life - without him.
Fine, if he was dead dead. If he'd just taken delivery of his shiny new ephemeral body and was wafting around in the ether on the next plane of existence - fine.
Even if there was no life after death, and he totally ceased to be - then again, absolutely fine.
But this was different. He was dead, but he was still here. His personality had been stored on disc, and The Computer had reproduced him down to the tiniest detail; down to his innermost thoughts.
This wasn't The Deal. He wanted her to start a new life when he was gone, not while he was still here. But of course, that's what she'd do. That's what she had to do. You can't stay married to a dead man. So even though she loved him dearly, she would, eventually, have to start looking for someone else.
And ... she would sleep with him.
She would go to bed with him. And, hell, she would probably enjoy it.
Even though she still loved Saunders.
She would, wouldn't she? She would meet Mr Terrific and have a physical relationship.
Probably in his bed.
His bed. Their marital bed. His bed!
Probably using the three condoms he knew for a fact he had left in the bedside cabinet.
The ones he'd bought for a joke.
The flavoured ones.
His mind ran amok, picturing a line of lovers standing, strawberry-sheathed, outside his wife's bedroom.
No!' screamed Saunders, involuntarily. 'Noooooo!'
Hologramatic tears of rage and frustration welled up in Saunders' eyes and rolled hologramatically down his cheeks. He smashed his fist down onto the table.
The fist passed soundlessly through the grey metal desk top, and crashed with astonishing force into his testicles.
As he lay in a foetal position, squealing on the floor, he wished he were dead.
Then he remembered he already was.
Saunders didn't know it but, twelve miles below, on the Saturnian moon of Mimas, Flight Coordinator George McIntyre was about to solve all his problems.
Wednesday, 10 December 2025
She Won't Go Quietly
Thursday, 4 December 2025
Mouths
If you look at the mature
In The Shining, to the best of My Recollection,
JJACK :
Slow night,
Mr. Torrance.
Danny, Champion of The World :
Not for long,
I imagine.
JJACK :
You're a Whiskey Man,
are you not?
Danny, Champion of The World :
I was, most of the time.
JJack :
On The House.
Danny, Champion of The World :
This was Your Brand.
Jack Daniel's.
I used to see the bottles in Our Home.
Our real home, before all this.
I smelled one once. It smelled like
something on fire, which
I suppose it was.
JJack :
I'm afraid you've confused
me with Someone Else.
It's Lloyd.
Danny, Champion of The World :
— Lloyd.
JJack :
I apologise, Mr. Torrance.
I don't know where everyone
is, but it'll pick up.
Danny, Champion of The World :
Oh, I know where they are.
And you're right... it'll pick up.
JJack :
If you don't mind my saying,
Mr. Torrance, you seem...
put upon.
Danny, Champion of The World :
Put upon?
JJack :
Ain't that the way.
Man just living his life,
trying to Do His Work;
He gets put upon.
Pulled into other
people's problems.
I see it all the time, if you
don't mind my saying.
Danny, Champion of The World :
So we lived in Florida.
JJack :
I'm sorry?
Danny, Champion of The World :
Mom and I.
JJack :
I'm afraid I don't know who you mean.
Danny, Champion of The World :
We never wanted to see snow again,
so we lived in Florida.
Tiny place, but it was comfortable,
and we were happy.
I mean, we were grieving.
We were traumatised,
but there was happiness too.
She... She would look away.
She'd look at me, but she'd always
look away after a second or two.
It took me a while to notice it.
But after The Overlook, she wouldn't
look me in the eyes, not for long.
Couldn't figure it out.
But it... It was you.
She saw your eyes in me, and
she'd have to look away.
It tortured her to have to do that.
So, I fixed it.
I fixed it for her, and it was
the last time I ever used it.
So that she wouldn't see you anymore
when she looked at me.
I was 20 when she died.
And back then, I saw when
someone was gonna die.
I saw flies. Black flies.
"Death flies," I called them, circling people's faces.
And in those last weeks, she was covered...
Her whole face.
I could barely see her eyes.
And I... I tried to comfort her, but
I could hardly look at her.
And she saw that.
She just lay there dying, with her son
who couldn't look at her.
JJack :
Maybe something warm to push
away such unpleasantries.
Danny, Champion of The World :
Don't you wanna hear about it?
She was your wife.
JJack :
I think you've mistaken
me for Someone Else.
I'm just A Bartender.
Danny, Champion of The World :
Oh, yeah?
Just Lloyd The Bartender, pouring
joy at The Overlook Hotel.
JJack :
I'll pour whatever you
like, Mr. Torrance.
Danny, Champion of The World :
Oh, Dad…..
This drink will cost
an awful lot.
JJack :
Your money is no good here.
Orders from The House.
Danny, Champion of The World :
It'll cost more than money.
It'll cost me eight years.
Eight behind me, and
who knows how many
in front of me.
JJack :
Your Credit is fine,
Mr. Torrance.
Danny, Champion of The World
Man takes A Drink,
The Drink takes A Drink, and then
The Drink takes A Man.
Ain't it so, Dad?
JJack :
Medicine.
Medicine is What It Is.
Bona fide cure-all.
Depression, stress, remorse,
failure, wipes it all away.
The Mind is A Blackboard.
And this is The Eraser.
A Man tries.
He provides.
But he's surrounded
by mouths.
That eat, and scream,
and cry, and nag.
So, he asks for one thing,
just one thing for him.
To warm him up...to take
the sting out of those days
of the mouths, eating,
and eating, and eating
everything he makes,
everything he has.
And A Family.
A Wife, A Kid.
Those mouths eat Time.
They eat Your Days on Earth.
They just gobble them up.
It's enough to make
A Man sick.
And this... is
The Medicine.
So, tell me, pup —
Are you gonna take
Your Medicine?
Danny, Champion of The World :
I'm Not.
(GLASS SHATTERS)
JJack :
Oh. Look at that. I'm sorry.
Clumsy old me, Mr. Torrance. Forgive me.
Let's get you cleaned up.
[ In The Men’s Room ]
JJack :
Management is concerned.
Danny, Champion of The World :
Concerned?
JJack :
It's horrible what she's done to you.
Pulled you into her mess.
A smart man?
He'd let her handle it.
Let things unfold as they're meant to.
Why should you pay her tab, Doc?
And for what?
For this little girl who
started all this Trouble?
Danny, Champion
of The World :
And what would 'Management'
Have Me do about that?
JJACK :
Nothing.Easiest Thing in
The World to Do, Son —
Just bring her inside.
And then, well —
You accept The Things
You cannot Change.
ABRA:
Dan! She's here.
Danny, Champion of The World :
Okay.
This place is sick.
Sick like my momo was sick.
It's Cancer, only worse.
(ELECTRICITY HUMMING)
What do we do now?
Danny, Champion of The World :
We head inside. She'll find us.