Perform Sex

 

The People screamed, 

The Fire went everywhere. 

So I was called into the office in the next couple of days. And who do I see when I sit down in the office, waiting like you're in the jail or you're in the principal's office? I see Timothy Treadwell. I was like, "Hey, How are you? I know I've seen you. I'm Jewel." He said, "I'm Tim." I said, "What are you in for?" He said, "I'm in for walking funny in the dining room." He said, "What did you do?" I said, "I lit the soup cart on fire." He said, "That was you?" 

And you know, it wasn't love at first sight, but it was certainly kindred spirits. 

Only Timmy is the boss of all foxes and all bears. You're their ruler. Look at that face. Hey, thanks for being my friend. This is so good. Does that feel good? We patrol the Grizzly Sanctuary together. How did we meet? Over a decade ago. He left his mother and father's side, promptly peed on my shoes, pooped on my clothes, that was it. He was my friend. Timmy, the fox. Yep. And we watch over things. And he's the boss. Takes care of everything. Yep, yep. He says, "I love the way you pet." I think one of the things that's really important is you can see the bond that has developed between this very wild animal and this very, fairly wild person. And you realize he has this gorgeous fur, and people are trying to kill him for it with steel door traps and cruel farming practices. And other people run him down on horses for sport. Fox hunting. We want this to end. Between Timmy, the fox, this beautiful fox, and me, we ask the public, please stop killing and hurting these foxes and torturing them. Don't you think? If they knew how beautiful he was, and how sweet he was, they would never hurt him. Thanks. 

Timothy used his camera as a tool 

to get his message across. 

Sometimes it was very playful. 

Do another take here. 

I fucked up the last one. 

Almost fell off the cliff. 

I'm a fucking asshole. 

Behind me is the Grizzly Sanctuary and also behind me, hidden down below in those trees somewhere, is my camp. 

I must stay incognito. 

I must hide from the authorities. 

I must hide from people 

who would harm me. 

I must now hide from people 

that seek me out because 

I've made some sort of, 

I don't want to say celebrity, 

but they come to Alaska and 

hear about Treadwell in the bush 

and they want to go find him. 

Well, they can't. 

I'm hidden down below. 

No one knows where I am. 

Even I don't know where I am. 

That's pretty shitty. Let's do 

a really short take here. 

But as a filmmaker, he was methodical.

Whatever.

Often repeating takes times. 
One more really short, excellent take. Let's just really sum it up. Here we go. This is gonna be the motherfucker. Behind me is the Grizzly Sanctuary, and also hidden below is my camp. For I must now remain hidden from the authorities, from people who would harm me, from people who would seek me out as a story. My future helping the animals depends on it. I must be a spirit in the wilderness. With himself as the central character, he began to craft his own movie, something way beyond the wildlife film. There is going to be a number of takes I'm gonna do. These are called "Wild Timmy Jungle Scenes." We're gonna do several takes of each where I'll do it with a bandanna on, maybe a bandanna off. Maybe two different colored bandannas. Some without a bandanna, some with the camera being held. I kind of stumbled. Let's do it again. So the basic deal is that this stuff could be cut into a show later on, but who knows what look I had, whether I had the black bandanna or no bandanna. Very rarely the camo one, but I like the camo look. Both cameras rolling. Both cameras rolling. Both cameras rolling! Sexy green bandanna, last take of the evening. I'm on my way to the creek. I need to get water. And there's a super-duper low tide. Full moon tonight, and action. 
In his action movie mode, Treadwell probably did not realize that seemingly empty moments had a strange, secret beauty. Sometimes images themselves developed their own life, 
their own mysterious stardom. 
Starsky and Hutch. Over. 
Beyond his posings, the camera was his only present companion. 
It was his instrument to explore the wilderness around him, 
but increasingly it became something more. 
He started to scrutinize his innermost being, his demons, his exhilarations. 
Facing the lens of a camera took on the quality of a confessional. 
Covering various years, the following samples illustrate the search for himself. 
If there... I have no idea if there's a God. But if there's a God, God would be very, very... pleased with me. If he could just watch me here, how much I love them, how much I adore them, how respectful I am to them. How I am one of them. And how the studies they give me, the photographs, the video... And take that around for no charge to people around the world. It's good work. I feel good about it. I feel good about myself doing it. And I want to continue, and I hope I can. I really hope I can. But if not, be warned. I will die for these animals. I will die for these animals. I will die for these animals. Thank you so much for letting me do this. Thank you so much for these animals, for giving me a life. I had no life. Now I have a life. Now, enough of that. Now let the expedition continue. It's off to Timmy, the fox. We've gotta find Banjo. He's missing! And that's my story here, for me, Timothy Treadwell, the kind warrior. Can I take it? I'm trying. Okay, yeah, I can do it. Yeah. Why not? Why not? I've crossed the halfway point. Government's given me all they have. So far. I've stood up to it. I've had danger in the boat, almost died. I've almost fallen off a cliff. Yeah. The danger factor's about to amp up in the Maze. The Maze is always the most dangerous. 
Lord, I do not want to be hurt by a bear. I do not. 

I always cannot understand why

 girls don't wanna be with me 

for a long time, because 

I have really a nice 

personality. I'm fun. 
I'm very, very good in the... 
You're not supposed to say 

that when you're a guy. 
But I know I am. 

They know I am. And... 
I don't fight with them, 

I'm so passive. Bit of a patsy! 
Is that a turnoff to girls, 

to be a patsy? I mean it's not... 
it's not that I'm a total great guy. 
I'm a lot of fun and 

have a good life going. 

I don't know what's going on. 

I always wished I was gay. Would've been a lot easier. You know? You can just "bing-bing-bing." Gay guys have no problem. I mean, they go to 

restrooms and truck stops, and 

they perform sex. It's like so 

easy for 'em and stuff. 

But you know what? 
Alas, Timothy Treadwell 

is not gay. Bummer!

I love girls! And girls... 

Girls need a lot more... 

need a lot more, you know, 

finesse and care, 
and I like that a bit. 

But when it goes bad 

and you're alone, it's like... 

Well, you know, 

you can't rebound 

like you can if you were gay. 

I'm sure gay people have problems too, but 

not as much as one 

goofy straight guy named 

Timothy Treadwell. 

Anyway, that's my story. 

That's my story. I love you. Look at you. You're the best little fox. 

But how did I come into this work, Iris? 

Did you ever get the story? 

I was troubled. I was troubled. I drank a lot. 

Did you know that? You wouldn't even know what that is. But 

I used to drink to the point

 of that I guess I was either 

gonna die from it 

or break free of it. 

But nothing, nothing, Iris, could 

get me from... to stop drinking. Nothing! I went to programs. 

I tried quitting myself. 

I did everything that I could to try not to drink, and then I did everything I could to drink. 

And... And it was killing me until I discovered this land of bears and realized that they were in such great danger that they needed A Caretaker, they needed someone to look after them. But not a drunk person. 

Not a person messed up. 

So I promised the bears that if I would look over them, would they please help me be a better person and they've become so inspirational, and living with the foxes too, that I did, I gave up the drinking. It was a miracle. 

It was an absolute miracle.

And the miracle was animals. 

The miracle was animals. 

I live here. It's very dangerous. It's really dangerous. I run wild with the bears. I run so wild, so free, so like a child with these animals. 

It's really cool. And 

it's very serious. 

I'm here alone, and when you're all alone you do get... you get lonely. 

Oh, duhl Right? You get pretty lonely. 

Oh, no. I'm gonna do 

all this stuff because 

I'm supposed to be alone. 

Amie :

Oh. Okay. 

Part of the mythical character Treadwell was transforming himself into 

required him to be seen as being 

completely alone. 

He was mostly alone, but 

he did spend time with women 

who will here remain anonymous. 

The Truth is that Amie Huguenard 

accompanied him for parts 

of his last two summers --

A fact which was out of step 

with his stylization as the lone 

guardian of the grizzlies. 

It's July and I've been dropped off all alone again here in the Grizzly Maze. 

And it's always such a surreal 

feeling as the plane takes off. 

And it doesn't quite sink into you 

just how alone you are. 

That for the next two months or more you will be alone in this wild wilderness, this jungle that the bears have carved tunnels through. And that's the Grizzly Maze. It's July. 

I hope to survive and to be able to record the secret world of the bears. And come September when people might come to harm these animals, I'll look after them, I'll make sure they're safe. It is so weird, though, when it sinks in, how alone you are.